First g a meeting tonight

Mate I think today has been a struggle for me the s**t going through my head today to do with all that s**t is unreal.. I've stood tall today and done what was needed another day another challenge tomorrow it's hard work but if you want to break it it will be hopefully on the future see the reward for your hard work....

Day 5 feeling pretty under pressure not sure if I can hold it together today everything is getting on top of me and thinking this that and everything else my head in totally wrong place today..barred from every bookies in town which helps but it later on the way home, so gotta get everything together by then...hopefully!!!!!!!

Feelin very frustrated today very angry probably withdrawal symptoms not sure but very anxious need to get home and relax feel uptight tense the lot today.. Hopefully chill relax for a bit so it goes away I will not gamble today...

Well how I've got home and not gambled I'm not sure,the c**P that's been going through my head is unreal this afternoon I thought not a chance I can make it home ,well I'm in the village by my house looking at the bookies that I'm barred from thinking how have I avoided that tonight.. My Mind is going a million miles an hour with c**P not sure what's going on in their but I'm struggling.. Dont get many replies on here not sure why think I'm a bit to honest and i just speak how it is and this is how I am.. Well another day two days to the next g a meeting really can't wait the way I'm feeling.. But I'm trying and winning at the moment..

You're at Day 5 so you're doing better than me pal! You're doing great. Well done with the first meeting.

Day 6 another challenge today feel ok today not so itchy today so get on with work and do what is needed today.. One day at a time so let's feel ok but remember only one slip away from starting again so try and be patient today and relax no getting wound up or stressed..

Well back to day 1 what happened today just back to normal now s**t street playing with my life here not sure what I can do but gotta start again.. Not good

Kitbag wrote:

Well back to day 1 what happened today just back to normal now s**t street playing with my life here not sure what I can do but gotta start again.. Not good

Evening pal,

What did you gamble on? How can we stop it happening next time? Its all a learning curve, none of us have all the answers so we've got to help each other out!

E x

My problem is fobt as mate and I can't stop in a mess and can't get out of it I'm going to get myself in big trouble my head is shot at the minute can't think straight....

Well second g a meeting last night my girlfriend came with me to the other meeting for partners at least now everything is out in the open up to me now.. Gotta change my whole lifestyle my friends all of it to succeed so it's a start again but now it's all out...

Well done Kitbag , your doing well mate , Fobt's were my problem big time and lost thousands along the way !. Been gamble free for just over a month now and I feel so good , My secret is I've just let it go , I'm not chasing it anymore , I dont want the money back , coz if I did I'd gamble it away and the whole cycle would start again , same sh+t and just another day .. Let it all go mate and dont look back . You'll never beat those machines so stop trying !! Respect for attending the GA meeting and nice that your girlfriend attended to , she must think the world of you ? , your a lucky man , take care of the important things in life and you'll be fine !. All the best mate , stay positive and gamble free my friend . Alan who will not gamble today !.

Cheers Alan appreciate the advice and your very true I have an amazing girlfriend who I have kept letting down but no more she knows the score now with it all so I can fight this with her help the money has gone but hopefully still time to save my life from all the c**P one day at a time thanks for the comments mate..