Its taken a long time to finally come to the realisation thst i hsve a problem. What started off as a bit of harmless fun has now developed into a serious addiction. It is all consuming and has affected all areas of life. Gambling has become suffocating and I have felt at times thst i am drowning in a sea of debt and despair. That same sickening feeling of worry, guilt and self loathing have become all too familiar.I have managed to keep it a secret from family and friends. I feel ashamed to admit how i could lie and decieve those closest to me to fund the gambling.
I get sucked in enough is never enough. Even when i would set myself what i thought was a realistic target to wi , it was never enough. I would find myself in that self destructive zone again and again. I wss kidding myself that i had any control. Even when i did win that is not enough.
I now want to start living and not existing. Its exhausting!
Although i havent gambled for a little while it is because i have no money, the real test will be when i get paid. It is relief to have no money as i know i can't gwmble. I feel positive at the moment and have had some breathing spacebut are dreading getting paid.
I work hard and yet have nothing to show for it. Im hoping that by finally admitting that i have a problem and being able to document my journey and with support from those who know thst i can begin the long hard journey and stop once and for all.
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Hi,
​Thanks for the reply. I have blocked myself and when I get paid I'm going to withdraw my pay as I done online gambling I am going to take away the temptation and my means of gambling.
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Hello Kadiz1
Welcome to the forum, I am pleased for you that you have finally come to the realisation that you have a problem and need some help.
I am glad that you feel able to open up and share your experience with us. hopefully it will give you an opportunity to find ways to manage your recovery. You mentioned having debts so I attach this link for you to check out some of the help available from debt agencies http://www.gamcare.org.uk/get-advice/what-can-you-do/finance-and-debt-management#.VCA56PldXww
I would encourage you to call our helpline to speak to an Adviser on 0808 8020 133 or use the netline service where you will be able to get further information, help and support with debt advice, and a free one to one counselling service.
Remember to take it one day at a time. If you do this, you’ll find it easier to break your gambling habit.
All the best
Cade
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