Gutted

Sarah

I relate to your post so much,the same most sensible person before covid hit, and then like you fell into a black hole. Have had weeks off and it and then bang. The breaking point was last Sunday u didbt recognise myself and what i was doing i was in a trance.  I have looked through my finances and couldn't believe what i had done to myself over the space of 2 years. This week i know i need to remember what  i have done but need to be able to somehow live and not let the losses bring me back to that place.  The funny thing for me was i never really won anything so don't know how i kept going back. Anyways you can do this and you are not alone 

If you do 30 pounds of slots per day 5 days week times 4 you are spending 600 pounds/month and 7200 pounds / year.

On only 30 pounds per day five days a week. How many of us think of that nr? 

It was not even on the radar before but in these uncertain times 7200 pounds is a fair chunk of cash.

We need to make ourselves mindful of these things because no one else will.

I wish you well!

Best

C

Just when I thought things couldn’t get worse, I thought oh I’ll have another quick go see if I can win some money back! Oh no lost another £500. I give up. It’s like I’m trying to destroy myself.

@sarah-help-me I’m sorry you’ve lost all that money. You may be different to me, but it’s the psychological impact that gets me, not the loss of money.

But if you are like me, you’re probably feeling utter rubbish now and I’m sorry for that. 

You don’t have to answer, but you said you’d spent this months salary previously. Where have you got an extra £500 to take a chance from?

I understand you could have savings etc, but that’s a lot of money if you’ve already blown a months pay.

What you’re doing is exactly what I was doing but I was using funds that I can’t pay back back. I’ve crippled myself for the next 2 years minimum.

I really want to be of some use on here, as well as getting help. 
I really don’t mean this in an offensive way but why would you block yourself from certain sites and not all? Surely if you want to stop this you’d block it full stop?

Im really not judging you because the mess I have made makes me the last person to judge anyone. But surely you need to block everything and get help properly? How can you be fully prepared to get help if you’re not fully prepared to help yourself?

You may be loaded, but £500 to the average person is a massive % towards monthly bills. That’s typically what I’d spend in a night and it’s not ended well at all. I’d say over the last decade I’ve exceeded 150k in total. 

There’s only going to be one winner by the end of this year and it won’t be you if you don’t put a stop to this fully.

I don’t know your personal circumstances, but if you cannot do this for you, please stop and block full stop for the sake of your immediate loved ones.

I hope you will be ok today after the loss of money you’ve had, stay safe 

The money put me in my overdraft. I need to stop this now before I destroy myself. Please please if anyone can give me any tips.

I would add yes the physiological part is hard. I feel like I haven’t been myself for the last 2 years. I’ve been sucked into a black hole. Sometimes over the last year I can go a few months without playing, feel great and then boom back at it and this needs to stop now.  

Dear Sarah,

Well done for keeping engaging with our Forum and getting support for your gambling, I appreciate it isn't easy to do. Please don't feel you need to give up trying, you are not alone in what you are going through and we are here to support you.

If you haven't done already, please do speak to one of our advisers on our helpline or live chat. Both are open 24/7 so you can talk any time that's good for you. Our advisers are friendly and non-judgmental, we can talk you through different practical steps to block your access to online gambling, as well as other kinds of gambling support local to you.

Wishing you all the best,

Jamie

Forum Admin

I’m on day 4! Doesn’t seem much but I already feel so much better! Less anxiety and stress. Still constantly feeling bad about what I’ve done but to wake up without think s**t how much did I lose last night is a great feeling. I will beat this. I got some hard work to do to get rid of debts but I haven’t destroyed myself, which is the way it was going. I actually watch tv for the first time in months without spinning wheels at the same time. 
for weeks I’ve had this constant weird pain in my forehead. I’m sure it’s from staring at the spinning wheels! I hate bloody leprechauns now! Thought they were lucky ? and pots of gold!! Let’s do this! Anyone else starting their journey? Be good to keep in touch ??