Hello Guys, sorry for the long life story :)

Hello guys

i started gambling when i was 15 years oldm trying out different roulette systems(there are no sort) and oddsing, recently i have had som colapses with the cs go skin betting aswell.

at some point i started playing poker aswell, my whole gymnasium time which is the 3 years after the 9'th grade i have been gambling pretty much every cent i had away, everytime i got 1, now i have been done with school for 1,5 year, and i have been working from then to now, i started out working only a little the first year and pretty much sitting on my a*s, living at home with my parents, one night i managed to lose 2600 pounds in a few hours, which was all debt, i confessed to my parent, and i managed to pay back the debt by working hard labor. My lifespand loses are prob around 10-20 thousand pounds hard to know.

for the last 7 months i have had a steady income aprox. 1500 pound pr. month, and no real bills since i live at home untill im studying on coming summer. i see myself falling into betting over and over again. i have lost more than half the ammount of money i have earned these 7 months, and with another lose on 1500 pounds yesterday, has now set me to around around 3000 pounds in my bank account, it is so dimoralising to keep losing my money as fast as im earning them. and i really need a good ammount for the upcomming study years. i still have 3 more months to work and earn, but i need to get away from gambling now for good.

I cant keep ruining it for myself like this, but for some reason i cant seem to stop. i would love to chat with some of you guys about your experiences and thought, to give myself a better view of this so hopefully, i can from this day and the rest of my life never gamble again.

i have not told my parent that im still gambling, because i know it would break them, my grilfriend knows im gambling but she thinks om doing even or well.