...let's start with a little story going back nearly 10 years ago.....age of 21, my dream come true. For the first time in USA, as a student working for 3 months in a casino as a cocktail server. Beautiful place but also a place that will change my life. Seen people winning and loosing ( true story, one guest lost 2 mil $ in one day) and after a while i've decided to try myself. 1st, 2nd, 3rd. ..time it was for fun, going back after 3 months to my home country i start going to some local casinos. ....winning, loosing but in my head it was still fun playing those crazy slots. For 8 years now I am living in UK. Here I discovered online gambling. BIG BIG MISTAKE. I started on small bets and small deposits, maybe 3-5 times a month. ...winning and loosing. But over the years those small bets and deposits became wages for 1 month or even more. There were a few people knowing about my problem - yes it became a problem. But I always kept telling them not to worry , cause isn't that bad. And I stayed away for months not gambling one penny, but after that I was going crazy with the bets. Nearly 3 years ago I met my wife and we've been married nearly 2 years now. After a big win I told her about my addiction. It was kinda of OK, I believe so maybe because it was a win and not a lost. But even after that I haven't stopped. I kept playing. And again I won but I lost as well. And every time I lost I couldn't sleep or I couldn't hide from her and I ended up telling her. And we had fights but she's been all the time close to me, and never gave up. And i stopped again for over 6 months but recently I have done it again. And it has been big....big money lost. And both of us talked and she advised me to look for help here online. I realise that I can lose her and all that we have built. Now I want to start a new ME. I am nearly 31 years old and I don't want to lose my life because of gambling. Thank you for reading and I am looking forward for changing my life and for any help, advice, etc.
I love reading posts from new members, the strength you have shown in writing this is a continuing insperation to me.
The words that you use, " I realise", "new me" "she's...never gave up" fill me with hope and confidence that your journey towards freedom from gambling will be succesful.
well done, stay strong.
Hi emosan,
thank you gor your comments. I know some words can make us stronger. I've been reading some stories here that I can say they shocked me. But I wish everyone the best and I know that if we stay strong we can be gamblig free.
Hi,thanks for sharing your story,I'm new myself,its so hard to admit you're problems,at least you've been able to come clean with your wife so you have some support,I wish you well my friend!
Hi blue in the red,
I know it wasn't easy to tell her, but she's the only person I have next to me here, all my family are back home. I had night without sleep, I smoked 30 f**s a day after I lost, but at the end I had to admit to myself, my wife and my sister that I have a gambling problem. I have try so many times to do it myself, but it didn't pay out!
But you only need one second to realise how your life will be if you continuing gambling. We need each other's help.
Lets keep it straight and let's make our families pround of us.
Good luck to you
Yeah it takes a lot to admit to yourself never mind your family,where were you born pal,if you don't mind my asking?
I was born in Romania.
Thanks pal,your English is excellent,were you educated in England or America,sorry for being nosey,I'm just fascinated by people's different backgrounds,also if other countries have the same issues with gambling as we do?
Hey, no worries. English was my secong foreign language in school after french. I graduated university in Romania, and after that I came in England. Been here for 8 years now. I think the gambling problems are all over the world. In Romania you can find a local small casino in every corner of the street. I know its bad as well over there and i heard of some lost cases, but see over there those websites for advice don't think they exist, or if they do, I have no idea what kind of help they will give you. I have my best friend back home, and we used to go together and playinh on slots. Many years ago he had a big win, since then to be honest I didn't dare to ask him how's he doing because it became a problem for myself.
Thanks for the response,I once spent 6 months in Macedonia when in the army,and although the area we stayed in was quite impoverished I was amazed at the amount of casinos,seemed to be one on each street.
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