I need to stop

Hi ryz. It is indeed a start, a good start, a positive step. The last part of your post shows you still have HOPE " I'm still young enough to pull it back " so take the next step now. Speak to Gamcare advisors and get help and advice, read others posts on here and see that you are not alone in this. There are lots of us here all stories different but all with common threads......lies, secrets,deceit,anxiety,depression ...... Install blocking software tonight stop the destruction getting any worse, I use gamstop and it's worked good for me I haven't gambled in 3 months after gambling every day for approx last 2 years. Obviously that's just one simple thing to do straight away, then get professional advice to find a way forward. Best wishes for going forward with your recovery

Hi, I don’t earn as much as u no where near, I am gamble free for 289 days, so you know that’s if you spend all your wages on slots and win £20k u won’t actually win 20k? 

u know why?? We’re gamblers we can’t walk away we will pour it all back in the slots and more besides and close your eyes and imagine some greedy fella sat rubbing his hands together every time you make a deposit, I bet they are spending your hard earned cash well, buying all kinds of treat for his kids, having lavish holidays with your money ... would u take a weeks wage and hand it to a stranger and say there u go u keep that? 

no u wouldn’t so stop giving a stranger your cash, and as for ending it all, your in quite a good situation although u probably don’t see it yet, you have a great job u can slowly chip away at your debts .. u can make an arrangement with the tax man in order to keep your home.. u have a family u are not alone ..

U want some advice tell your family sit them down and tell them the truth that’s what I did whilst they don’t know it’s easy to keep lying and keep gambling but they first step is being honest that’s the best thing I ever did was tell my husband I earn a month what u earn a week but after nearly a year I have money left In the bank the night b4 payday if my kids want a treat I can buy them it I don’t have to say no because it’s money off my slots..

u can do it u really can but the first step is being honest..

good luck and stop all this talk of ending it all u have more then U realise !!

Dear Ryz,

Thank you for your moving post to the Forum. I am sorry to hear you sounding so despondent; but as others have said, it is not too late; you can pull this back and by beginning to tell your story here, it sounds like you have taken the first step in doing so.

It sounds like you have been holding on to all this for a long time and I can imagine it is not an easy subject to talk about, but the first thing I would encourage you to do is contact the helpline on 0808 8020 133 or via the live chat, both of which are available seven days a week, 24 hours a day where you will be able to speak to an adviser and look at all the options for support available to you. This will include practical advice on the best gambling blocks to put in place and how you might restrict your access to funds to gamble as well signposting to independent financial advice/debt management in addition to the option to refer you to free treatment support. Treatment support will help in identifying any underlying issues, or factors that have contributed to your gambling over the years; your triggers and so on. I am concerned to hear that there have been times when you have felt like there has been no point, so finally I would also encourage you to contact your GP for a general conversation and check in around your emotional/mental health. 

Wishing you all the very best,

Helen

Forum Admin

Hi mate, I’m a bit younger than yourself but have found myself getting carried away a few times with online slots. Recently had a great win and ended up putting it all back in. Done this a few times. I feel like I’ve finally learned the hard way where if you win big, don’t try and win even bigger, just relax and continue to play on your own comfortable stake otherwise you will just end up losing what you’ve won. Think the big question for yourself is, finding the root cause of it all, what’s causing you to gamble so much? Is it something you do to cheer you up? Do you not feel happy when not gambling? Is it the adrenaline of not knowing what happens next? Whatever it maybe, taking a little break might just put everything in perspective. I found meditation and spirituality a year ago or so and it has been the most life changing thing I’ve ever found. Try not to beat yourself up over the past, we all sometimes do things that we wish we could change but remember the journey of a 1000 miles begins with a single step, even if you don’t feel you can stop or cut back right away, doing even £10 less is a start. I still get carried away sometimes but I’m not perfect. I will get to the point where if I lose my bankroll I will be able to smile and click off the app until next time Always here buddy. Stay strong I believe in you. 

Hey guys thanks the replys.  This will be day three of trying to get my head round this thing. My mind is playing all kinds of tricks on me. Do I really have a problem? I just need to scale it down a bit. When I get paid I'll just give myself a limit ect. I know that's all BS. 

I have already found a few good tools to make it hard to gamble. I did gamstop a year or so ago but it didnt take long to find sites not signed up to it. So now I have signed up to a gamban subscription. Its seams to do the job and at 24 quid it's a few spins worth and I'm happy to try it.

I haven't told my partner yet. She is unaware I started gambling again after it came to a head a few years back. I want to but just cant face it. I've told my mum so I have someone close I can talk with about it. I still haven't spoken with anyone professionally about. 

I have pulled my head out the sand a bit with the business debt but most require me to be gambling free for a month  before I can progress so that in itself has set me an Imediate short term goal.

I also the love the last days since gambled featured on my account here and I have become strangely obsessed with wanting to see those days increase.

Sign up to gamstop and that will eliminate the online problem. 

Sign up to MOSES and that will mean you cant go in to the bookies you add to the list and perhaps casinos too. 

Good luck.