Last night I finally admitted to myself and to my girlfriend that I had a gambling addiction and has been lying to cover this up. This past year I have tried so many times to stop, but I keep falling back into the trap. I have never lied to her about anything other than this and I would never hurt her, but this has destroyed her and now she cannot trust me. Gambling has ruined my life and broken the most important thing to me. I dont know how I will ever get her trust back. I have today spoken for the first time to someone on the gam care phone line as well as telling my parents about this. Tomorrow I am going to my first anonymous meeting. I will never forgive myelf for what I have done and let myself become.
Hello jamesterz
Welcome to the forum and thank you for posting.
It sounds like last night was a turning point for you, where you finally took responsibility for your gambling. It was a huge step to take and you were courageous enough to admit it and tell your girlfriend. You may find that perhaps the trust could be rebuilt over time with some support from those around you.
Well done for joining Gamblers Anonymous I hope you find the meetings help and that it may eventually ease some of your distress.
Its the beginning of your recovery which may take some time, but we hope you will find the forum useful in supporting you throughout the journey. There are many options to help, so please do take some time to look at this site and see whats available.
Well done again
Cade
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