My Journey starts today

Alimbutt wrote: Hi everyone
So it begins. I am addicted to gambling, well gaming machines to be precise. Have wasted so so much money and am now skint and quite desperate. Have spoken to an online counciller and have today taken the first steps. My sister knows but no one else so i need the support that i hope you guys will give me. I am not ready to reveal the extent but it has to stop. Today. So this is day 1 of my journey.

Day 2 still early still thinking. I really need to get a grip on this

Hi Alimbutt,

Welcome to the forum, and nice of you to share your story with us.

It seems like you’ve taken a step in the right direction by speaking to an online counsellor about your gambling problem.

Don’t worry if you don’t feel ready to share the details of your gambling problem at the moment, it would come to you naturally voluntarily when you feel ready.

I suggest that you take it one step at a time whilst following our advice, and be patient with yourself. Once you begin to apply the strategies, you’ll soon notice the difference for the better.

We might be able to offer you more help and support when we get to know a bit more about your gambling history, but that will hopefully come at your own time.

Maybe you’d like to read the posts from our Chatroom and Forum to encourage yourself. You’ll come to realise that you’re not alone, and that it is possible to overcome your gambling problem if you follow the strategies.

Please do feel free also to contact our free phone Helpline on: 0808 8020 133 and speak directly to one of our advisers about your gambling problem.

Thank you for your post, and please keep posting!

Kind regards,

Beatrice

Thank you admin.
Day 3 getting ready for work. Feeling very positive but still thinking about the pick and mix gaming machine. Feel so stupid that it consumes my thoughts. I can do this

Hi Alimbutt,

Im also on day 3, Keep going strong 🙂 you CAN do this....

Told my partner. Shamed embarassed depressed. Called stepchange. My head is all over the place

Sorting finances with stepchange. Scared. Still not played slots but have strong urge. This is crazy. My head is fuzzy. Really need to get a grip

Sent letters to debtors asking for time to sort myself out. Too ashamed to speak to them directly but i will have to eventually. No slots since 23rd june but a tenner on online bingo. Stupid stupid it has to stop. Still early days. Feel so ashamed and depressed

Pay day tuesday. New bank need to transfer wage to it and tell old bank whats happening. Still very scary. Want to gamble urges so strong. Need to get this demon out of my life

Ok so gf since 14 july which is me finally being totally honest. DMP up and running from 1st august. All sites on mob now self excluded. This is really happening. Cant sleep heads a mess but i can do this.

Hi there Alimbutt,

Hang in there. I know how you feel. I am in the same place. The yearnings for the machines are horrible, I cannot control my thoughts, my mind races and I feel like I need them.

Getting through this is so very hard, but we can do. I believe in you buddy. Keep fighting

good start alimbutt!

I stopped gambling after reading the book ALLEN CARR'S EASYWAY TO STOP GAMBLING

Thanks guys feeling bit more positive today. Just miss that buzz. Tried giving up smoking with alan carr but didnt work. Glad it works for some though. Just need to keep thinking of the debt gambling has given me