My Journey starts today

Thanks guys feeling bit more positive today. Just miss that buzz. Tried giving up smoking with alan carr but didnt work. Glad it works for some though. Just need to keep thinking of the debt gambling has given me

Still going with slip up last friday. Not beating myself up. Its sooo bloody hard

Back to day 0. Feeling very low and turned to slots. Lost of course. Feel sick and very very stupid. Why oh why did i do it.

Back to day 0. Feeling very low and turned to slots. Lost of course. Feel sick and very very stupid. Why oh why did i do it.

Hi Alimbutt

i am new here but in my opinion even though you went back today you also came back here, I feel like accepting the problem is a huge part of it. I know it isn't going to be easy and many of us have along way to go. I know for me focusing on what I have done and lost in the past has driven me to gamble to try and make some back so I think a big part of it is to find a way of changing the thought process of beating yourself up. I know myself thats harder than it sounds and haven't really found a way myself yet. Sorry if you don't find this helpful

Hi Alimbutt,

You can do this! As UKM said, the fact that you are straight back on here means things have changed for you. Set some small goals. Get to a week and then, 2 weeks then a month and you will have something to defend and build on. Sending positive thoughts your way mate! : )

Jay

Thanks guys. Onwards and upwards. Appreciate all the help i can get

Well i gave in again 13 days ago. Lost 200 and have been skint since. Not again. Pay day monday will be day 17.

How are you doing Alimbutt?

Still going. Slowly and painfully but getting there. Thank you all for your support. Dmp up and running. Learning to live a life without the *thrill* is hard but will be rewarding in the end. I just miss it does that sound crazy?

Ups and downs gambled 18th december. This is not happening again. Thought i could win and lost all my wages. I had already bought all presents and food but no cash left. 2018 is my year. Gambling can do one. It is evil and soul destroying. I want my life back.

Have you signed up for the 2018 Challenge?

Could be a good way to check in each week and discuss issues with other people. My ideology is if I ever feel the urge to gamble then do something productive. Go for a walk, go to the gym, do some drawing, listen to music etc.