Hi everyone,
I've just joined this website after losing hundreds of pounds through gambling over the last few weeks. I got let go from work and in a vain attempt to say f**k you to my problems I put big money on what I thought were certain winning bets. Sadly, I was only further reminded that the bookie always wins. As a result, I contacted a helpline and have got signed up on here. And I never ever want to go back to some of the places I've been to in the last few weeks.
The Bookie Always Wins
Pick a side; your call. But I guarantee
the grass is greener on the other.
They've beaten you one way or another,
just like your pathetic predecessors.
Look at you - a sweaty, neurotic mess,
dribbling the last of your whisky chaser
down your chest while glaring at the laptop
with your back hunched. You grip your shaking hands,
praying that the Argentine football team
you hadn't even heard off till tonight
can hang on for a hard fought nil nil draw -
An unorthodox goalie stood between
a temporary sense of elation
and explaining where 500 quid's gone.
No one emerges from this a victor,
but we keep playing the game. Just one more,
just one more, you say, your heart racing
like It Don't Come Easy at Royal Ascot,
and in a race against fate you cash out,
your own inquest flashing before your eyes.
And remember - the bookie always wins.
Hi
Yes there are some very good lines in there which go deep. Gambling preys on the human condition and should come with a full health warning. I dont know if there is a lower feeling than the one after extinction gambling...so lonely..... so totally alone and numb to the world carrying on around me.
If I went in with depression I certainly came out feeling many times worse. It makes absolutely no sense to me now. The grass is always greener with my mind full of lucky clover. I had lost as soon as I walked in. The bag of stale crisps and 5p cup of coffee for the high roller...the big wig
The unknown football team is a great example of a place we have all been with different forms of gambling. I desperately tried another random number generator before having to explain where the best part of £1000 had gone. That truly desperate feeling of patting my pockets for the last coins
Ther neurosis and the hot and cold sweats. I cant ever see that it was fun. What sort of crazy idea of fun or excitement was my brain setting up for me? What was I thinking!
I used to walk out skint and there should have been a bell tolling because I was running through my own inquest in my mind
Welcome to the forum
Best wishes
Joydivider wrote:
Hi
Yes there are some very good lines in there which go deep. Gambling preys on the human condition and should come with a full health warning. I dont know if there is a lower feeling than the one after extinction gambling...so lonely..... so totally alone and numb to the world carrying on around me.
If I went in with depression I certainly came out feeling many times worse. It makes absolutely no sense to me now. The grass is always greener with my mind full of lucky clover. I had lost as soon as I walked in. The bag of stale crisps and 5p cup of coffee for the high roller...the big wig
The unknown football team is a great example of a place we have all been with different forms of gambling. I desperately tried another random number generator before having to explain where the best part of £1000 had gone. That truly desperate feeling of patting my pockets for the last coins
Ther neurosis and the hot and cold sweats. I cant ever see that it was fun. What sort of crazy idea of fun or excitement was my brain setting up for me? What was I thinking!
I used to walk out skint and there should have been a bell tolling because I was running through my own inquest in my mind
Welcome to the forum
Best wishes
Great to hear from you, and thank you for your kind words! It's not a good place to be in that's for sure, and the thought of the prize at the end is what keeps us going. But the bitter fact is that there is no prize, nobody wins. If you win big you want to keep going and won't stop until it's too late and you've lost everything. When you lose big, you want to make the money back by throwing even more at the bookmakers. And then when you're at your lowest ebb, someone somewhere opens a bottle of cava as they announce record profits for the year.
But we're here to show that we're bigger than all that and that we will overcome this together.
Neil
Struggling to get on with these forums as i a technophobe. Help appreciated please!!
I have just told my sister about my addiction. Was scary. Want my life back. Addited to bandits at bingo. Debt mounting.
Hi Alimbutt,
If you would like to start your own thread to write about your story and look for advice, you can click on the Forum you would like to post in, i.e. "New Members" and then scroll down on the page where you see a "new topic" button. Click on this and you can start your own thread.
Neil, welcome to the Forum. Sorry for hogging your thread...all the best to you!
Hope this helps!
Kind wishes
Gabriele
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