My own worst enemy...

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Hi,

Right now I feel like my life is a complete mess. I had managed to stay relatively in control of my addiction for the past year, but I think I have been fooling myself. I have once again hit rock bottom thanks to my gambling and don't dare to tell anyone as I am so ashamed.

I'm a carer for my dad and stepmother and just don't want to disappoint them anymore than I already have done.

I feel like when I loose money, I might win it back if I continue, like the next spin might just be the jackpot... I know it is stupid thinking like that but I just want to be able to give something back to my dad, make his life a bit easier.

I do suffer with depression and anxiety and the gambling certainly doesn't help me at all. I tell myself I will only play the free games but I am starting to think that I should just close the website accounts I have, but I don't know if I can... i have an annoying little voice saying "you might win something for nothing" but I don't always stick to the free games and that is where the trouble lies. I know what I need to do, just doing it is not easy and all the stress is taking its toll...

Any advice is appreciated. Thanks for reading,

Kibble

 
Posted : 6th September 2016 3:40 am
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hi kibble

im joe , stay strong and draw a line under it , thousands if not millions worldwide have sucummbed to the evils of gambling and the buzz its gives you but you now experienced the lows aswell and it can get worse some ppl on here are looking at prison sentences

where do u live ? how old r u do u mind me asking ? lets have a chat and try get to bottom of it

joe

 
Posted : 6th September 2016 9:14 am
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Thank you Spraggy and Half-Life. To be honest it was something of a weight off my mind writing it down. First step and all that. I live with my dad and stepmother if that is what you mean and I'm 37. I'm lucky in the sense that I don't have to worry about a lot of things most people my age do, but I would rather use the money I would gamble with to help my father... that is what makes me feel worse, all that money I have thrown away... going to self exclude myself after posting this. Tired of feeling so...carp. once again thank you for your replies.

Kibble

 
Posted : 6th September 2016 11:58 am
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hey kibble

im in the same position or was really trying this time ,,, and all that money i span on a roulette table could be better spent on absoloutly anything , u get nothing ater a gambling binge unless your lucky , the amount of times i been estatic about breaking evens , after being down a lot , why be happy about being evens , gambling tricks your mind in ways i never thought possible , yh concentrate on something else now , self exclude say good bye , like a lot in things in life can be fun but end up dangerous , ur 37 , 4 years older than me and if i carrying on gambling i loose thousands more in that time frame , money that could be spent on lovley things

what part of the country u from ? are you male/female .? ill like to be a emotional support if i cna over the next few weeks as if you tackle this alone u may re lapse x

 
Posted : 6th September 2016 12:32 pm
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Really does help knowing I'm not alone in this. And indeed the wins are few and far between. I'm female and live in Nottinghamshire and having support would be great. I guess everyone is here for one another, kinda a two way street. Felt better when I had excluded myself from the sites I have used. A clean start. Just hate all the d**n ads on tv, seems like they are everywhere.

 
Posted : 6th September 2016 6:31 pm
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morning kibble how r u today ? yep the goverment should stop them , they may not be physical harm like smoking or drugs but gambling causing mental harm , unbelievable stress at times , i spent £600 in one hit on roulette in 20 mins , scary

whats ur plans today ? how you going to keep busy ? im orginally from birmingham live down south now but where ever u are in the UK ur not far away from sort sort of gambling company , im at work so keep in touch x

 
Posted : 7th September 2016 9:36 am
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Ads are a disgrace! Government wont ban them because gambling companies have to pay them(gov) millions in tax every year. All about the $Π²β€šΒ¬Π’Πˆ

Good luck in your recovery guys

 
Posted : 7th September 2016 10:45 am
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hi joseph , im joseph too lol , i know the scale is mind blowing , its actually a 50/50 split with profits on ALL gambling income just think how much money that is , the dirty beggars are well in on it

how long u gamble free ?

 
Posted : 7th September 2016 11:01 am
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Thanks guys for your comments. Oh and aside from kIbble I am known also as Sandy heh.

Maybe one day the goverment will wake up and realise that the publics health is more important than money they get from tax when it comes to gambling sites. I mean they moan about cost to the NHS from smokers etc and the obese, yet I am sure gambling has a knock on effect with people needing support for CG and the like.

I guess the only option we have at the moment is to try and block out the adverts and remember its not worth the pain, though that as usual is harder said than done.

I'm not going to lie, not feeling that great, but that is because Im waiting for a d**n prescription to arrive lol. Messed up with the ole meds and side effects are giving me grief.

I'm kind of at work seeing as Im a carer, so that is my plans for the main part of the day. Oh and complaining about the humidity. Roll on the colder weather. THe heat drives me nuts.

And after I have done the majority of what needs doing I will be playing Final Fantasy online, perhaps read a bit... I know I know, the excitement. XD

How about you guys? ANything nice planned for this evening?

 
Posted : 7th September 2016 11:45 am
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hey sandy im joe by the way

i think your doing a great job giving up all your time to care for those you love , im in the greedy oil business £££ and suppose no different to gambling companies just made as much money as possible , but that the society we live in and there so much more to do than a bloody casino game or the slots so fair play to you for getting the game console out , ill love a game with u , got nothin planned for the evening , was out drinking last night with my mate so prob just resting on da sofa with my 2 cats lol , i live in city center so i got to plan my journey to work away from any temptation , keep checking on this or feel free to txt me if u get the urge / 07393382003

take care

 
Posted : 7th September 2016 12:12 pm
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Hello again Joe. I think the oil industry is tthe lesser of two evils lol. I mean oil is essential to most aspects of life in some shape or form. Its important work I should think, certainly is in my eyes anyway. Yeah, careing is rewarding, tiring yet rewarding and I am lucky in that I have the console in the kitchen which is next to the living room so if I am needed I can drop what I am doing and go do whatever is needed. ALso gives my dad and his missus semi-alone time. XD

yeah, at least with the game I play I can't get into too much trouble, seeing as anything important in game you have to earn via playing. Though really wish my real life bank account was as flush as my ingame one.

Also trying to keep my mind occupied by planning all the decorating that will be done in a few weeks time. WEnt with a friend to pick up wallpaper and supplies yesterday which was nice. MY friend snagged a load of samples so am planning on using them for some wall art.

Oh I know what I will probably do tonight, I have a habit of watching horror movies whilst sketching. SOMe odd reason horrors bring out my creative side and as I brought a sketch book yesterday I figured it would be another good distraction from any would be urges that may rear their ugly head.

ANd thank you for the offer of sending a text. Careful what ya wish for lol.

 
Posted : 7th September 2016 12:30 pm
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hey sandy

wow you sounds like such a interesting women , do me a favour and txt me though or email me [email protected] as we slightly going off the gambling help talk and this is what the forum for and ill probably get told of by the moderor soon , but love to chat more bout all your non gambling hobbies and get to know u

on the issue of non gambling one of the golden rules on here and GA is break the gambling triangle and you can,t gamble that is MONEY TIME LOCATION without any of the above you just can,t do it , smash the triangle girl and it be a great start x

 
Posted : 7th September 2016 12:48 pm
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AH yes good point. WIll do that and I have finally told my dad and stepmother and it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. THey were both really understanding and I have given my dad my bank card so I can't use it. ALso it means they will be keeping an eye on me and such. KInda a weight off my chest I must say. I guess honesty is the best policy after all.

 
Posted : 7th September 2016 1:30 pm
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nice one !! great start because gambling thrives on secrecy , there always ways around it tho , u can get money from ur bank with ID so stay on your guard , there loads ways of filling the time up

i got more into my books recently , u can,t beat a good few hours outside with a good book and a beer or 2 ,

email me now talk there πŸ™‚

 
Posted : 7th September 2016 1:47 pm
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Hi Sandy and Joe,

It is great to see so much mutual support on this Forum! I noticed that you have published contact details here and while this is something we don't discourage, I would like to draw your attention to our sticky on posting personal information and contact details. http://www.gamcare.org.uk/forum/exchanging-contact-details-other-members

All the best to all who are contributing on this thread.

Kind wishes

Gabriele

 
Posted : 7th September 2016 9:09 pm
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