Hate myself

I find myself constantly lying to my wife , she has stood by me but this time it's not going to happen and I don't blame her I'm making her ill. I would like to stop permanently and get my life back on track. I have become a different person I don't know who I am anymore.

Hey mate, this is the place to come for advice on quitting gambling .................................... but you have to take it on board and want to quit, just coming here and posting a little, reading a little, won't work. I came here in 2012, I still ain't cured. I guess when you reach rock bottom really rock bottom you will come here and start to work, to try and look for answers. Gambling changes you as you have noted, it's a terrible addication, once you start to lose money you don't want to, it's in your head win it back win it back. I think I have become a really different person because of my losses, and I am nowhere recovered, it will take me years, good luck with your attempt to stop, hope this helps

Thanks mate my post don't even scratch the surface. How did you manage to handle it I never want to gamble again. I know it's easier said than done I've admitted I have a problem that's a start.

hi ryder, handle it? i have handled/managed gambling quitting gambling very badly. If i had took notice when i first came here in 2012, i would be relaxed, happy, financially ok and not on this site. you want to quit now, the question is do you really want to quit now? it has to come from within, before financial destruction takes place. a quick post here and there ain't enough, counselling is great, come on here, go on live chat, bear your soul, i'm not the best placed person to take advice from, i have lost thousands, but i am not gonna end up on the streets, if i have to type on this site day after day after day

Hi everyone I am new to this site and after 8 years of gambling compulsively and losing track of my life I have finally acknowledged I have a serious addiction and want to find the answers to stop it. I started gambling when I was around 17, opening up several online accounts and spending thousands on roulette. I had a healthy savings account of about £4K but after about a year or so the savings gradually disintegrated and I found myself in debt to numerous payday loan companies. When I was around 22 I moved on to blackjack which has been equally as poisonous. 4 years later I am still lying to friends and family about finances and thats not the person I am or want to become. After reading some of the stories on here I can certainly relate to peoples experiences; I guess the feeling when you are on such a losing streak and depression spiral and put a bet on hoping it will LOSE, thats when you must come to terms with your illness and realise it must be helped. Any advice would be much appreciated guys, thanks:)