new beginning

well i didn't move the bill money, thought I'd have one last £10 and you guessed it, I spent the lot, over a £1000, what a horrible person I am!! Now no idea what I'm going to do, why would a mum even do that? I hate myself I really do, well guess I've no money to even think about gambling with now, and be a long time until I ever get any in my bank again, feel so so low and like I've hit rock bottom 🙁 my son and partner deserve more

My heads in bits how can I go from feeling so strong to a complete weekless mess in the same day, what a horrible thing gambling is and what a horrible person I am

Never mind a whole day, these emotions can change like the flick of a switch! The addiction is sneaky, it doesn't want to let you go & it won't give up easily. No money, no gamble so the triangle is broken & you cannot gamble now anyway so lift your head & get on with your recovery! Let this 'just a tenner' remind you why you must never gamble again...We cannot win because we cannot stop!

You're not a horrible person, you're a mummy with a horrible addiction but you can beat this - ODAAT

yes your right no money means no gamble, I've let every one down again and the feelings horrible but I know I can put that right by never gambling again, I hate gambling and how it makes me feel, here we go again day one, am going to make a new thread in the recovery diary section, thanks for your supporte

Most people will slip up, the thing is there is nothing you can do except pick yourself up and start again.

While you're in a determined not to slip up again mood, you need to get those blocks in place and prepare for what you're going to do when you get money.

Many of us, just leave that one or two accounts open, but a gambler will just gamble as much overall on one or two even if the other dozen or so have been closed.

Gamblers remorse only lasts a very limited time, because of course tomorrow is another day and I won't lose next time, says our minds. Oh yes you will, so act ASAP while the remorse is still present.

Hi worriedmummy i hope your ok, there seems to be a pattern forming with us women with young children getting suckered into gambling. I think were trying to "raise" money for our babies to have a better life and were just getting more and more into debt. Ive got a 2 year old and im in exactly the same position as you and every time i gamble im disgusted with myself and for the rest of the week im walking around depressed can hardly even speak to anybody all i want to do is stop for good but it seems to be a vicious cycle where u think one more win could change your life. Keep us updated how you get on, i slipped up today after promising myself i wouldnt gamble we need a plan to stop this!! x