Hi
I can't keep this secret anymore. I started gambling a couple of years ago, usually just the odd bet on the horses or football games. I remember my first 'big win' of £200 off a free bet, it seemed so easy so I quickly signed up to more and more gambling websites. The gambling progessed to online scratch cards and slot machines and I gradually spent more and more.
No matter what I win it is never enough and the withdrawal is usually cancelled before I ever really see the winnings.
I have recently bought a house with a mortgage and I am saving to get married, I cannot afford this addiction but cannot help myself. I am scared my fiance will find out and feel like he won't want to marry me if he knows.
I hate feeling this way, I hate being scared what I'll do next. I hate being alone because I cannot trust myself. I just needed to get this off my chest.
Rose
Hi Rose, I'm sure there will be loads of people on here that can offer you some fantastic advice, I'm not feeling like I'm in the best position too offer advice as I relapsed, but I can tell you I'm back and learning from where I went wrong, so firstly you really need too stop your access to gambling, self exclude from online sites, it's easy too do but make sure you do it for the max time! Cool off and take a breaks do not work! you can get amazing blocking software that stops access too gambling sites too. As you look through the posts on here you will see that blocking access too money is key too...and these things are easier if you have someone too help you, do you think you could talk too your partner about it? Well done for admitting you have a problem, it's not easy but you have made the first amazing step coming here, everyone will be able too help guide and support you I'm sure x
Morning Rose, just wanted too pop by and say Hi, you can do this 🙂 ring the helpline too, they will be able too give some advice, and some councilling maybe? I hope you have a good day. Alice
Hi Rose
Welcome to the GamCare forum. You've had some great advice there from AER1983. You're in the middle of some major life changes right now, with buying a house and preparing to get married, as well as trying to deal with your gambling problem. You don't have to go through all this alone - you are very welcome to call us on the helpline 0808 8020 133 or chat to us 1:1 on the Netline.
Best wishes
Deirdre
Forum Admin
Hi Rose, just wanted to say well done posting on here, admitting you have a problem is a big step. Read other diaries which detail how to put blocks on your computer and phone to prevent online gambling. Are you in debt, or have you recognised your problem before it has led to debt? Gambling leads to secrets and lies, it is a lifetime addiction, is it not fairer on your fiancГ© that he know the truth, and hopefully he can support you in overcoming it? You have to take it a day at a time, today you will not gamble. It will get better, you will soon start to feel better about yourself. Best wishes.
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