New here, just lost my family

Hi jayd, I have very good self esteem and great confidence. I understand what your saying too.

A phoenix moment is a very good description of what we are trying to achieve.

Yes, KP82, we are rising from the ashes and getting back to own good selves, unshackled from the shells that we had become. We're getting our mojo back!!!

Exactly KP82 and Mixer suppose when you are rock bottom the only way is up It can be done you just have to be honest with yourself and genuinely believe it otherwise all this is pointless by the way day 25 and not a single penny gone into those nasty machines keep battling people

jayd wrote:

Exactly KP82 and Mixer suppose when you are rock bottom the only way is up It can be done you just have to be honest with yourself and genuinely believe it otherwise all this is pointless by the way day 25 and not a single penny gone into those nasty machines keep battling people

Jayd, I salute you sir; you are two weeks ahead of us and determined as hell. We share your absolute hatred for those poxy, thieving, pointless boxes. As I've said before, when you open one up, they're empty apart from a big banknote collector and coin bank.

Says. It. All.

Not only banknotes and coins but the devil inside lurking lol.

KP82 wrote: Hi jayd, I have very good self esteem and great confidence. I understand what your saying too. A phoenix moment is a very good description of what we are trying to achieve.

Hi

Yes its that moment when everything seems right about telling someone and getting round with the photographs. The moment when I finally had enough and was prepared to act on the advice I had been given.

Its the moment when everything becomes clear in a deeper sense. Its almost a religious moment of being born again.

Its the moment when I realised gambling was killing me and I was a compulsive gambler with no control. The moment when I realised I had been paying lip service to stopping but doing nothing positive that had been advised. The moment I feared the addiction and started respecting how strong and deadly it is.

The moment when counselling seemed vital to my health rather than a nuisance I would be embarrassed about.

It was last christmas. I had gambled I had rowed with my dad about something because I was stressed with my life and totally skint. I never felt a low like it. Christmas was ruined and it was my fault. Gambling was destroying me and my family. It finally sank in that this was no half hearted game, I had no control and I hadnt really wanted to stop

So I spent one of the best days of my life self excluding...such a positive day then I backed it straight up by starting to rebuild the relationship with my family. This involved telling them I had been a compulsive gambler and what I had been doing. It involved monitoring bank statements, the exclusion forms and telling them all about what I was doing to make sure I didnt gamble again. It still involves regular reports and double checking rent and my tiny balance credit card. I still dont take money from them without them being present to see exactly where is going

It was a relief and compared with the fact gambling was killing me, it wasnt too hard. I was already a mess gambling away essential money so gambling had stripped me of my dignity and pride. The only way was rebuilding some trust, being a good son and a good person to others

I will be renewing my blocks on or before 29/12 and I must prepare for that this week by checking with them what needs to be done. I will get more photographs done as they will probably be needed to keep things up to date

So yes it is about that giant bird rising from the ashes, flames and destructive carnage of gambling

Best wishes to everyone on the forum

Fantastic post joy.

That absolutely hits the nail on the head.

We KNOW we have to stop. We CAN stop. We WILL stop.

May I echo KP's sentiment, Joy. What an excellent, inspiring post and tops up those determination levels like you wouldn't believe. Wishing you continued success.

Amazing post!

Gives me some hope for myself and hope is a start.

We CAN and we WILL

M x

Evening KP - WCAWW 🙂

Hi KP, Mixer, Change. Today after a rough few days, I am feeling as fresh as a daisy and wonder why I wasted my money for so long.
After overcoming some serious urges over the last few days, the money I saved purchased some extra presents for my loved one's. Normally the extras would only come if I had , had a big win. It's great seeing the gamble free days ticking by on my counter. I never want to feel the panic and vunerablity that brought me to this site. Calm feels nice doesn't it ! Together we are encouraging each other on and are well on the way to a fresh new year .

Another GA meeting done feel good,used to walk to the pub on a cold day to gamble but this time rode my mountain bike that was gathering dust because I was wasting time on the nasty machines and I rode passed the pub with no thoughts of gambling it felt good day 29 gamble free but still a long way to go small steps can make a big difference

Well done Jayd another day free !

Thanks Katiecoo can see extra cash in account but really need calm and some sort of inner peace not stress and anxiety no more triggers

Yes I am finding it difficult on my days off and generally can't relax. Maybe calm is something that will eventually creep up with time. I for now am happy to live without losers panic