Ihello I'm Suzanne- so it all started a couple of months a go and I'm in a bad situation. I've had depression since 17 and I had eating disorder. 2 months a go I discovered the online game starburst and I have been addicted ever since. I've maxed out 3 credit cards 2 at a grand and one at 4 grand. My partner knows I'm in debt but doesn't know how got to yhis place. My first couple of times I won a couple of hundred pound and it started from there trying to win money back that I lost and been in a vicious circle. So want to get out of this circle.
I genuinely do feel addicted
I can so relate to what you have written. As I too have an eating disorder and PTSD from childhood. You have simply replaced one form of self harm with another.
Please tell those who love you what you have done. Hard I know but trust me not telling them in the long run will cause you further anxiety and depression because you will lose them through lying if that makes sense.
I did not and I deeply and will forever regret.
Keep posting and be strong x
oThank you its so hard I just know my boyfriend and parents will go so mad if I tell them I scared of losing them. He knows I in debt but my parents don't xx
I had the love of my life. I lied and did not tell the truth. Years on I am lonely and I will always live with regret.
Like you I did not want to tell the truth. Upon reflection I wish I could tell the truth back then. The heartache just is not worth the lies.
Please find the strength xxx
Self exclude from the sites. Report your cards and credit cards as lost. Just tell them someone stole your purse in a pub. Get a trusted family member or your partner to cut up the credit cards and scratch off the 3 numbers. I know the game you play and it is online.
Make a diary here. Please please tell your family and partner as Mr Gamble grows on lies
x
Hi all I have now self excluded I have told my partner he isn't too impressed but he sticking by me xxx
That fills me with hope for you ! Brave lady x
Now change those cards as that game I know is online only.
So pleased you found your bravery x
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