Hi lulu
I think you would benefit greatly by getting some counselling. I am aCG, so I can help you with your gambling but from what you have posted I think you need to talk to a proffessional. As ODAAT has said, being a carer is very demanding, and I think you need an outlet. To be able to take care of somebody is hard enough without having to deal with issues yourself.
Don't be too hard on yourself. You are a fulltime carer AND your son loves you. Credit where credit is due. You have done a pretty good job I think. 🙂
Take care
Thankyou al so much, I have tried counselling ,many ,many times,unfortunatelly I get so far & then it comes to a time in my life .....usually about 13 :(( ( sad time ),that I just can't go back to,it was & still is too traumatic for me to return to,for many years I blamed myself, played "fast & loose " in my teens, pregnant @ 17,but still married to R,s dad :), I felt that all that I was good for was to be used & abused, but I am now getting my life back together, many people tell me that I am a good, kind & worthwhile person even beautiful,I just don't see that person when I look in the mirror, all I see is an old fool who should know better, I am well educated & am luckier (a lot) than many people that I see, but I always have "cried for the moon ",I had it once, 2years ago I had a 2nd chance with my first love (or maybe lust !!!?????), but, I ruined it through my own insecurities, c'est la vie, The song " kiss & say Goodbye" ....The Manhattens ,says it all :(( But ,thank you all for reading my musings,just writing it down helps me enormously ,massive love to you all Lullu xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
My son & daughter in law are wonderful, she is the daughter that I never had , I only have 1 child through choice , I felt that al the love I had was given to my son ,it would not be fair to bring another life into this world feeling the way I do, but I am a very self centred person, oh dear .......I must have 1 good point .......errrrrrr, oh yes, my good looks & common sense .....not !!!!!:)) Two ????? crikey !!!
Thought things can only get better now, but just "cremated " my chicken under the grill !!!!!!, oh well ,new recipe ..........VERY chargrilled chicken ?????, still I will enjoy it with my salad, forgot to say ,I am on a healthy eating plan ,I have lost about 3 stones in a year, still more to go tho !!!! loads more , but I can stick to a diet because I have an end goal, will have to do the same with gambling ........as my son & his peers would say "Deffo":))
B/T/W, when I was young ( or maybe still ????), I was told that I bore a striking resemblance to Lulu , Everyone I met straight away said " oh you look so much like Lulu !!!!", a bus driver said to his passengers as I alighted the bus "we have an international singing star here with us ", I looked around to see who it was ......... & was flabberghasted to realise he meant me !! All of you on here have created a monster !!!!!!! asking me to carry on posting , I am a chatterbox without any prompting anyway, I will leave you all in peace now & sorry for boring you with my tales of "fame" l.o.l. pleeeeeeeese :))) xxxxxxxxxx
Or if counselling isn't for you what about something like GA?
Triangle, Hi there, To be totally honest, I feel that this forum is theraputic, I have not thought about online slots or otherwise today, I will see how it goes, my goal at the moment is to put the money that I would have otherwise used on online slots aside, to save up for an e d t by Chanel ..."Anteaus" I think that it is , my husband loves this aftershave & likewise me. It is about £75 , it will take me a few weeks, but at least it will be money that is "mine" & not for other bills ( that is what I was using to gamble ).NO, I won't be gambling again, my mind is made up , I can & will do it, what I have in spade fulls when I need it is will power( or shall I say when I decide that I need it , which is now !!!.) Thankyou for taking the time to comment on my post/s.
Lulu xx :))
My laptop also became "infected "with I think it is caled malware from the gambling sites, it took a total age to put it right ,so if for no other reason ( there are plenty !!!!!), I have stopped as from last night .
L.x
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Agree totally with all that you say,especially about the gambling industry..........online & else where they ,I feel,prey on vulnerable souls & give total "false hope", off soap box now 🙂 love Lulu x
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