2014 Challenge

Anyone who follows my diary in the recovery diaries section knows i struggle with urges and temptation but that doesn't give me license to gamble

Recovery or abstinence does require me to put in effort honesty and a bit of action

However if i do gamble again as the great philosophers say its what i do next that matters and im learning i need to get back up on that proverbial horse

But its not easy anything but to stop gambling and avoid that first bet

Yet if i want a better life that's what i must do

Even the gambling den's say gambling is entertainment. Even they say to set an amount of time and money you can afford to lose

So whats it to be?

Keep gambling or try and find a different way?

tri

Checking in on day 12, feeling so much better in myself and so much stronger. I had a long period of time in which I wanted that bet and I eventually slipped up, however now I feel different. The urge has gone, I don't want it and I feel ready to fight again. If only I could stay in this frame of mind forever, I am however hopeful that if the urge returns I can deal with it better.

Hi all, checking in for the week day 119 clean.

Thanks D.

checking in on day 171 back from a really nice 11 day holiday trip to see the family in Germany berlin together with Lou, Lucy and Dan and celebrating my sister's 50th Birthday :)))

It was a brilliant time and we all really enjoyed it by brilliant weather but on the other hand it's good to be home to.

Thank you Mr B. for checking in for me and keeping me in the challenge 🙂

Really need to find every now and again the time to read the forum especially with feeling safe at the moment. been there before and it ended up in a laps as you all know and I really don't fancy another one.

So far everything is fine and I hope it stays this way and I will do all I can do to keep it this way.

I hope you are all well and gamble free.

Stay strong soldiers love and respect

Wolfgang

Morning all, checking in and still remaining gamble free. Welcome to all of the new joiners to this challenge and everyone one else keep up your continued efforts to stop gambling.

Have a great weekend.

Mike

Checking in on Day 137, i get more excited every week when i type in this number, each milestone gives me more impetus and determination to reach the next.

Another weekend, another family birthday, September must be the most common month for birthdays in history!

Having said that, i recommend as much family time as possible. it really helped me and the support and love you get back is unconditional. Have a good one

Hello all. I'm back. It's been a very up and down few months.

I had a big binge about three months ago which led to me checking out of the forum and chat room , pretty much out of shame. I also failed to tell my partner what was going on, which I had promised myself I would do.

I then began a course of CGBT which was great, very helpful and I abstained for the duration of the course and a good month afterwards. I then lapsed last week and this turned into a relapse for a few days. Hit rock bottom last night but 'luckily' this was just before my partner came home. I didn't have time to put the feelings to bed so as soon as she got in I just came clean. I feel terrible that I have done this to her but she handled it amazingly , isn't going to break up with me and ultimateley wants to help. She didn't want to know about debts last night, she says she needs time before learning about that because that's the point she will get angry with me, which is fair enough. But it's a start at least.

So - day 1 today for me. And this has to be it really because if I gamble again my relationship is over.

Hi Check in Day 197.

Checking in day 41.

Hi Mr Brightside and everyine

d**n how I wish I'd listened to you now. Those 2 mins a day checking in may have stopped the car crash that has been the past month.

But hey ho! Here I am again signing up to the fact that in order to beat this I need your support and encouragement. And I also need to give back too. Every now and again I think - " Great, I've won - I've beaten this gambling". Then it's "Well 50 wont hurt will it??". Then all of a sudden I'm back in the same old "I gotta win my losses back - bet more bet more - lose more - s**t!!!!".

So back to day one in the long journey to a happy gamble free life.

Craig

Another gambling free week, does seem to be getting easier these days. Good luck everyone, Daz.

Evening all challengers

Day 232 on Sunday gamble free

Been a better week not so many thoughts of gambling life music loud . Marching on hitthefanx

Hi Mr B. Still trying to stay away from gambling, had a relapse last weekend (about the 4th one this year) looking at a big 100 day push to end the year which will bring me nicely into 2015 which will be a full year of abstinence. 5 days clean.

Checking in on day 51, still no temptation to gamble but I'm in a good place at the minute and I have people I can speak to from my GA meetings if the urge was ever there.

Checking in on day 185 of no gambling.