Can I limit myself to just ten things I hate about gambling addiction and what it did to me over those years
1. No morals. You had no morals on what you would take from me, so to feed my addiction you took all my morals away and let me live as a degenerate far removed from my true moral compass
2. o*g, when I came into recovery I realised I was gambling 8 hours per day. That's a third of my life watching slots, horses, greyhounds, football or a casino wheel
3. Money. Nothing was ever enough for you Mr addiction. Even when you gave back you took more and more and more. Where was the limit to your greed ?
4. Out of control. You led my mind into chaos. You were all I could think about. Had you decided the money and the will to gamble was running out so you decided to finish me off with a nervous breakdown ?
5. Relationships. How many girlfriends did I lose ? What wasn't I bothered, as they just got in the way of gambling ? Was a gambling with love and did you take that as well ? Friends, family gone as well or severely broken
6. Envy and Jealousy. This was your MO. I had envy of people who could control you. Jealousy of people who were happy and you convinced me that one big win would sort all of that and it was just around the corner.
7. Broken. I went to GA 33 years ago and you wouldn't let me surrender. You had to leave me broken 33 years ago, tossed aside to crawl back into a room. Why ?
8. Each time I went back to you it was worse. All those nights where I said no more, you woke me early and said let's win it back.
9.Trust. All the lies and dishonesty that you thrived in has left me not trusted by anyone I know. I used to think I was honest, well I was until you took a grip.
10. So why wasn't the time, harm and money enough for you ? Why did you have to take my feelings as well. I was only 12 and now I'm 56 and can't compute my feelings.
So here is my answer to you Mr Addiction, take the first letter from each point above and you will have it
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