101 Dalmatians (1996) Glenn Close

I've been dying to write about this topic because I honestly don't know if its just me or whether others do it. Is it just simply what makes a gambling addict, so i'd love to hear back if anyone else did the same

So it's about round numbers. Maybe for for the full forty for years but at least the last twenty, I would wake up each day and have a set amount I would want to win....not sure if that statement is right because every morning I literally knew I was going to win lol why else would I do it. The amount would change each day but even if I had, say, a bill for £x my round number would be £x plus x or £x.plus x plus x.  So that's the first question, am I alone in that methodology ?

So the next one and this is the one that I've always thought makes me barking mad and I surely must be alone is this example. Let's say I don't have any pressing payments and because the name of the day ends in a Y , I want to gamble. I religiously only gambled on days ending in Y so as not to over do things and become addicted. I wake up and I think it would be good to win xxxx today. It's getting late playing slots and I get to just over it profit so I've done it. Rather than taking it out I play one more spin but I'm playing a stake of x per spin. Rather than reduce the amount of x3, one spin and withdraw the money I play the 5. It loses leaving me with x.-x and again rather than withdrawing, it's not a round number so I keep going until I get to x - xx. That's the next question as to am I alone ?

Last question I would love to hear from other opinions is the next morning. So I've ended up x up the day before. I wake up and the only thing I can think is I'm x down from the xxxx I had and I've got to win it back. No thoughts of being 9x up, my mind says I'm x down

I absolutely love numbers and always have. I would really like to know if the above was just me ?