2000 days gamble free and onwards i go......Adam Poker: Adam 123

So here i am five days later...... we are coming into winter and altohugh ive been fequenting the chat room everyday ive been neglecting my forum posts of late.... going to try and either post to someone or on my diary every day.......  

Im a bit down as i feel i could try harder at work.....Ive been off work last week four days with a cough and cold....and whilst i was off the voices were strong and my mental health was poor...... i phoned my practioner on the monday (after the 4 days id had off),,,,,,, couldnt get thru and i felt really emotional and my mentla health was bad and i felt i needed some time off work incase it was an episode coming....so i walked up the mental helath place to see someone and there was no one that could see me.....they said someone woul phobne but it took till next day to get a call back..... i went to work on the monday - weds then had an appoitnment and had a good talk about things ...... they said i was doing really well with all aspects of life and they felt i should have the thurs and fri off work so i did....... so ive had another four days off work including the weekend then back today.

Im also on holiday on weds after the champions league match this week.

So im kinds thinking ive not really put in enough work to warrent a holiday day....... and that im not offering enough as an employee....kinda knocks my confidence and self esteem....

so tomo im going to aim to do as much as i possibly can and will work an extra hour after my shift has ended to atleast show that im trying my best.....

Ive got to have a phone call with occupational health to see how they can assist me at work......

Here's to bit of hard work in order to feel a bit better about myself

Had a great day at work yesturday....went in with the soul objective to put a shift in and a shift was defo put in......got all of the recycle bins cleaned along with my usual jobs.

Then watched the spurs victory and had a lye in and the went to town met a friend for a coffee and looked around the shops.

Bought some lego today......

Mum thinks i should get my windows changed in my flat...... im thinking it will cost a lot to do that and id rather keep paying them back what i owe with the express objective of owning my flat completely outright within seven years......  I mean would be nice to hav enew windows but before she mentioned it haddent even occured to me.....

All the best adam

Well hello dear diary..... its 6 days later..... still gamble free.....

Ive had 3 bouts of bad luck lateyl..... first i got a nasty cold..... was off work 4 days...... then as result of cold i got mental health issues and my doctor said to have two days off..... then now in the following week i got a bad back on saturday and had to have the monday off work too..... luckily i get sick pay but if i keep having sick days they will no doubt pull the sick pay surely.......

So im doing pretty well with recovery...... ive not spent too much over the past three months since buying my switch 2...... ive done lots of exercise..... ive not spent too much on food...... ive seen my mum and sister lots.....ive watched lots of football..... ive played lots of games....... 

Here i am a few days later...... my back is still aching but ive been to work so thats good....getting lots done at work...... looking forward to the weekend....shall watch the footy.....go for a coffee.....come on chat.....

Lots to be thankful for

Long may my gamble free run continue

wow 14 days later...... here i am catching up on my diary.....

I usually write on a saturday or sunday night..... But today is thursday night and i felt like catching up ....

I'm writing today as i have had a turbulent last month and start of this month.....

I have come down with various different things resulting in time off work recently...... and as a result my manager had to get me in touch with occi health to measure whether they had to take it any further....  The resulting phonecall was thankfully very reasurring and they advised that due to my skitsophrenia i should be allowed an increase in sick days and that i should not have new tasks that could overwelm me introduced to my work life........  This said however i am determined to reduce my sick days and become more of an asset to the company.

Since i had a cold over a month ago...... Then i had mental health issues for a week....then i had a bad back (still have) from two weeks ago...... then i got policemans foot (painfuull heel of foot)...... ive not had the best of times...... Ive been struggling to go to work....... and ive stopped going to the gym.... and as a result ive done less steps and have got from a maximum weight of 88 kgs to over 89 kgs.........

With getting my foot better i took the stance of getting a lift to and from work and making sure i go to work but putting an ice pack on foot after work and not doing any other exercise..... My foot now seems  a lot better but my back is still in pain......  Lets look at my steps over last 3 months:

week from june 15th:

101,018

110,468

112,766

100,332

140,503

107,386

106,991

99,862

86,193

76,819

67,449

33,984 (cold, off work start of rough patch)

72,819

81,172

69,940

61,149

48,091

The wek where i done 140k was my holiday week, and who does that on your holiday spends 6 hours each day walking!!!!?,, ,, im nutz..... i went thru  health kick and although i lost a bit of weight it wasnt much and i went too far i feel.... I got run down.....

Then came the rough spot and i was off work for 3 episodes seven days in total..... however i managed with my bad foot and bad back to contiune going to work which is great so im happy with that.

If i go to work all five days of week i will do 55k steps just going to and from work and working the five hours a day...... So i feel the sweet spot for the week without running myself down will be between 60k - 80k

Lets not go over that and make sure im fit for work.

Three days later..... had a lovely weekend...... Went to my sisters yesturday and played games with nephew and brother in law...... then played xbox today and went for a coffee with a friend....

Really getting into my gaming again.... love it..... im soo lucky i got such a great set up.....

rewards for not gambling i guess

Fruits of rewards.......

I add up how many hours i play each year to keep track of how much im spending on it and how much i get out of it....however i forgot that ive been deleting games too to make space so i think ive played even more than i thought.....

At mo it works out £2 per hour played im spending on it...... but still got 2 months of year left..... and also i spent a lot of time on motorsport so im redownloading it to see whether i can see how many hours i played it to add to the total....

4 days later mid week ramble......

Ive been good with my spending this month...... paid off my sofa and paid for a year of xbox ultimate...... then apart form that ive spent twenty pounds on food and nothing more....... Means ive got 400 left to pay towards money i owe my parents.....

I had a rough few weeks of illness..... im not very good at being ill and nearly allways take the day off work..... so first illness was a cough and cold so i took four days off work...... then my mental health wnet to pot and my practitioner said to take a long weekend to recover which helped but that was 6 days off in two weeks..... then my back went so i had a monday off work..... then went back with bad back and worked then my heel really hurt.... but i managed to stay at work thru that..... im not fully recovered but its been three weeks since i had sick day so thats good.......  Im gonna aim to get to christmas without a sick day and go from there.

so three days later and ive now caught a cold......

really cant catch a break.....

early night after gamcare chat

Here i am six days later for my weekly saturday night early sunday morning update......

Been trying to rest and eat plenty of fruit to knock this cough cold out of my system.

Im on my third day of my mini holiday...... 

Weds night watched spurs european game..... wasnt very exciting but with a lot of luck and 23 shots against us and 8 saves form our goalkeeped somehow we managed to get a nil nil draw.....

So soo far weve got five points from three games in champs league and are mid table looking good for the qualifaction come january.

like i said a couple of posts ago id like to get good value out of money money spent on all subscriptions and consoles.  So over this month ive played about 50 hours of gaming and watched about 10 hours of box sets and films......  With this in mind ive now as of today spent 1 pound 67 pence per hour on my gaming..... ill look to get down to 1.50 P by end of year.  this would be 235 hours spent playing over the year.....currently im at 211..... so just 24 hours left to play in 2 months easy........at rate im currently playing ill do that in no time.  Loving playing fortnite with my nephews and brother inlaw and loving trying to complete gran turismo.

I also watched some good tv on my paramount plus...... it expires in november and it has been good entertainmentv over the year hell i wouldve got 48 pounds value from mobland alone lol.

i still got 8 days holiday to look forward to spread over three different times in nov and december.

Ill look to hit the 6 years gamble free in december and will no doubt start a new diary around that time.

Exercise wise ive taken a backseat...... just doing between 50 and 70 k steps a week at mo looking for my feet to heal so im not in pain thru working day life........ 

all the  bbest

Evening dear diary,,,,,, This is the 40th post on this diary....... and in that time 168 days have passed....... pretty much half a year........ It goes to show that ive not been posting as much as i used to...... however i still keep upto date with my diary once a week...... usually a saturadya or sunday night...... and i still come on the chat every night at 8pm to give advice....

Ive been trying in recent weeks to do many things:

Firstly ive been poorly in many different ways over the last two months which have resulted in less exercise and the same amount of food..... this has let to me weighing in at over 90 kgs last week..... ive been upping my steps and gym visits and have weighed in today at 89.75..... so a step in the right direction...... my feet have got noticably better and im thankful for that.....my back still aches but is also a lot better..... ive done 89k and 81k steps over last two weeks and am happy that its a reasonable amount without burning myself out.

Secondly i like to get my value for money when it comes to gaming, sports watching and watching paramount box sets...... With this in mind ive got my cost of gaming for the year down to £1.68p per hour and have really enjoyed playing 28 hours of fortnite with my nephews and brother in law over the last month.....  Ive also done well on my gran turismo career.  Also ive watched pretty much every televised football game to get best value..... Ive also this weekend and last watched probably ten hours of paramount plus boxsets and films..... My paramount will come to an end on the 23rd and ive got a lot of value from it over the year..... i might pay for another year we will see.

Work has gone great to be fair..... my manager seems happy..... i know i only earn min wage and am part time but i likee to try my best and if i dont offer them value for money at that wage amount then it would be crazy.... But work is enjoyable and i feel valued and like to go to work each day.

My finances im continuing o battle with each month and obsess over them too much but i feel that im doing really well.

No gambling thoughts to mention recently.... i know it would be a terrrible idea and all of these positives would be redundunt if i was gambling again.

One thing to note was that one of my uncles passed away this week...... \i really got on well with him although not seen him in a few years as they live in norwich...... \he lived a good life cigars, wine, skiing, holidays aplenty, he was a lovely man....... he lived to 77 which is a good innings...... Goodbye uncle michael....

All the best Adam

Hi Adam ,

Well done mate , seriously well done you are my inspiration right now as I’m very raw from my situation, you have truly put the right mindset into place by making all the right choices, I am going to be like you! And keep going👍

Hi Adam,

I would just like to say a big well done for your journey, you should be incredibly proud of yourself and I'm sure the people around you are very proud too.

Ever since I joined GamCare last month, and attending the Mon & Tue session quite regularly I've always seen you in there and it's amazing that you are so consistent with it and always try and give good advice to people that are just at the start of their journey.

I'm pretty confident in saying you are an inspiration to a lot of people in this forum and you feel like a big brother to us all. 

Thanks for everything you do Adam, keep up the great work my man!

Rob

hi ry and robk,,,,,,,,,just wanted to say thanks soo much for writin g on my diary such lovely words.......means the world to fill me with such confidence

Well those posts have really cheered me up and filled me with confidence.

i like to come on chat every night to try and help where i can......

Some nights its challenging but nights like this are very rewarding.

Ry and Rob lets  keep at this....lets work hard and reap the rewards......

Work going well....not been off sick for 8 weeks now in a row.....feeling more positive about my health.

All the best adam