just logged on for the first time in quite a few years,and noticed I first came here in 2008,I'd like to say that I have improved in Those 7 years,I suppose they have little,I know longer gamble week in week out,but I do seem to do it at the wrong times,feel like S***e today,had a bit of a bad weekend,haven't lost loads and still have cash,so things aren't that bad,but just feel low,suppose to pay some cash out in a few days and don't have it,had to drag my a**e past the bookies on the way home from work,so tempted to try my hand,but nope I made it past,just don't think life should be this hard................today I have not gambled,day one of the battle done,day 2 starts Tuesday,as for the cash I owe out,guess they have to wait!!!!!!!!
Welcome back Scouse. Glad to see you are gamblin g less and have recognised your trigger times and that you resisted the urge yesterday. Are you trying any methods to help you stop such as self exclusion, counselling or Gamblers Anonymous?
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Hi Scouse glad to see you were able to drag yourself past the bookies with the cash you had left, I too am starting over I quit for a while but I started gambling lately again so together we all can overcome this nasty addiction
Sleepless nights
yeah its much easier for people like you to not bet as you not got depression like i have! i wish i found it easy like you
It's much easier for me to not have a bet because I've not got depression?,where that come from,you don't know me,I've battled gambling for 25 years,and had some bad times and not very many good times,went bankrupt,and came close to saying bye,I certainly wouldn't say it's been a happy time.im not as bad as I used to be,buthere will never be cured,anyhows yesterday was a better day,no bookies and threw myself into working on jobs at home,and leroy,don't ever think for one minuet it's easy for anyone on here,or they wouldn't be here
if there's one thing I've learned over the years,its I'm never going to be cured,I'm always going to be a gambler,but it my choice of I choose to gamble,I've been through all the c**P of its there fault,they upset me today so I'm going to escape for a while,and do some damage.its like a self destruct button,that my hand is hovering over,and my normal brain knows to steer well clear from,and the gambling part of my brain,trying to press down hard,today I choose not to gamble
Another day out the bookies,but to be fair it's not that difficult,as payday only comes once a month,still have access to little bits of cash,but don't seem to bother then,tend to wait till I think I've got a few hundred to mess about with,been thinking today how I need to learn to live life with just enough money to be happy,and learn to put some away,I've never been a saver,always spent everything and then looked for ways to borrow whenever I needed extra,starting to think this is where the gambling comes in,no matter how much money I have,it's never enough,I always want bigger or better things than what I can afford,and try the easy option,stupid thing is,even if I won enough to pay for 2 weeks away somewhere,I'd proberly carry on,and think I could change my car when I'm home,need to learn to be content
Decent Saturday to be fair,spent time working on things in the house,few drinks in the garden,watched a bit of the footy and didn't care hadn't had a bet on it,life's good at the moment,and with no spare cash that's a little surprising
Had a decent Sunday starting to enjoy working on the house,doing little bits,making it look ok,still trying to train my brain into thinking having no spare money is ok,still finding at times that I'm thinking at a 100 mph,how can I get money,and then a sudden thought comes in.that I don't need it,I'm lucky enough to have gas and lecky and food in cupboards,don't need to borrow to waste on stupid stuff,and then it comes to payday and worry about paying back,and then gamble to get me out of a situation,it's a long road,but one I want to go on
day off from working in the house yesterday,just sit relax and few drinks in the sun,enjoying what I have.todays going to be a bit tougher,it's funny how somthing as your kid saying they need new shoes,to change your mindset,life's challenges might not be the end of the world if they don't have them now,but it means the world to a 10 yr old if she gets them
Got through that day,a little borra of me dad,better than trying to win them,starting to really struggle cash wise,still s couple of weeks till pay day,I'm thinking when payday does get here,I will put bank card in wife's purse and let her take control for a bit,my way of letting her know I've been struggling a bit
10 days of the fobt,not to difficult as they don't take fresh air,but suppose in the past I may of used what little I had to try my luck,have thought about self exclusion,but as there is about 50/60 bookies within a 2 mile radius,seems a bit pointless,I managed to stay out of them for 18 months,I can do it again,you only get one shot at this life,and no way do I want to waste another second standing infront of a screen,wasting time and money
Well had my first urge.stomach churning moment,got about 40 in me pocket,and sitting here thinking If I lost it wouldn't be that bad,and I could win s few quid and make the next week or so a lot easier,but even if I won I'd lose.as payday would give it back anyway,think I will stick with what i have
Been a couple of weeks since my last post,didn't want to post every day,as I don't want my life to be just about gambling,must be about 5 weeks or so since I last went in bookies,and just been through a pay day,so far so good,getting a new tattoo which is going to be a reminder that my family comes before gambling,so it's always in my eye line,whenever I get weak
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