Well after 18 years or so wasted gambling my life away and almost losing everything I love and ever wanted this is it! It's game over for gambling and time for a brand new start!
This diary marks day 1 of me not gambling and as of right now I feel massively determined and positive. I'm very focused and WILL succeed.
i have known for a long time that this day was coming, I don't even enjoy gambling or have a clue why I do it, I should have taken serious action years ago, but it's never too late right? From this day onwards I will never again spend a single penny on gambling.
I have the most amazing wife and family that I love so dearly and losing them over this stupid addiction would break me. I will not let that happen, I will fight until I draw my last breath to beat this horrible illness.
I will add more about myself and problems in time but for now I just wanted to make a quick start and log my recovery from here on in.
Hi iwasmad! You certainly were mad, as indeed we all were. Many, many times over. Every person that starts a thread on here gives themselves a really good chance of channelling their thoughts and harnessing the power of the collective. No-one ever pretended it was easy, but admitting you have a problem and YOU are ready to deal with it is the only starting point. What was your poison? What barriers have you put in place so far? Does you wife and/or family know of your problem or of your decision to put a stop to it?
Thanks for replying whatami, not got time at the moment to go into detail, I'm busy working, but I will post everything ASAP.
For now I just wanted to mark the fact that it's Day 4 and I'm still going strong, not gambled, not really had any urges, things are already looking up. So far so good, I'm massively focused on beating this dreadful addiction.
Day 7 today since I last gambled, and I'm as determined as ever to beat this!
Im feeling much better already, it's quite amazing how much of a difference one short week can make.
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