Well done on the show of strength. It is small steps like that which will make us feel amazing and contribute towards the overall victory.
well done on the quarter century...here is to the next 25 days!
Day 27 - working away all week, get paid friday, not going to gamble any of it, but have the measures in place to stop me doing anything silly. But as thingsd stand att the moment, they are purely for insurance purposes. I am mentally stronger, and every day I do not gamble is another day I'm winning!
Today I will not gamble
Day 30 - A month tomorrow since my last bet. Ive been paid, most of my bills have been paid and the rest will be Monday. Ive shown everything to my wife and she seems Ok with it. Life is good.
Today I will not gamble
I have just read your diary, well done for your progress so far, it sounds like you are really making an effort. When I have more time I will start to contribute to your diary.
I found one to one therapy wasn't for me, but a group meeting like GA was, we're all different. I actually enjoy going to GA every week and make it a fixed thing in my diary.
Keep up the good work.
Day 31 - 1 month ago I relapsed. Now I am much stronger, Money is available, things are paid off and I am in a good place. No more gambling, so much money wasted.
Today I will not gamble
Day 32 - Nothing to rfeport really. Not gambling and feel much better for it
Today I will not gamble
Your diary has given me such hope today.
Day 35 - 5 weeks since I gambled. Had a bit of a row with my wife today over money, but nothing that can't be rectified. Its so nice to be able to be honest with her, and also know that I have money nearly a week after payday. Its going to take time for her to trust me, and even longer until I can be financially solvent again, but I am taking this one day at a time, and resisting any urges I get to gamble.
Today I will not gamble
Day 38 - Not been the best weekend, me and the wife have, through bad communication, not got on well since thursday. Though we had a nice day today, so ended on a positive. Not had one thought about gambling, have a lot more money than normal, and I'm really upbeat and confident about the future.
Today I will not gamble
Day 40 - Had a couple of urges yesterday, mainly because I was in Leeds working at an office with a w**********l next to it, but managed to resist,and felt better for it.
Today I will not gamble
Well done indeed. These first 90 days are critical, half way there. Your life WILL get better.
Day 44 - Still not gambling, but life at home is hard. We dont get on any more, and maybe time will change this, but I dont know if it will. My weekends are empty and lonely, but so far I am not going to succumb to gambling even though that was what I used to do when I was in a bad mood. I'm generally not been happy now for a while ( before the relapse), and whilst I originally thought I would sacrifice my happiness so long as my wife was happy and we could have a relationship, I now think that I also need to be happy.
Anyways, I created this s**t storm, I'm going to get myself out. I've got another counselling session tomorrow so at least I have that level of excitement to l;ook forward too!
Today I will not gamble
Day 47 - Not much to report differently really, have been to three counselling sessions now, and its brought up a lot of confusing memories that I can't seem to get out in the open. Not had any gambling urges recently which is good, and I'm off to Sweden with work on Sunday so looking forward to that
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Well done on 47 days Coco,
Have a great time in Sweden,
Suzanne xxx
Day 53 - Sat in my hotel in Sweden, and still free from gambling so far. Ive been far too busy to even think about it really, or even think about this place, that doesnt mean that this isnt important so have felt the need to post how things are going to help me and hopefully help others that can't see the way out from this horrible position we put ourselves in. I could quite easily go play some poker online or deposit some money in one of the many websites and play slots or roulette like i would when I was a d**k - now its not even a thought. The value of money is so much greater than what it was, I can see debts coming down slowly, I have money available 3 days before payday ( I have NEVER had that, not even in one month) and I can appreciate and recognise the hard work that I have done to date, but know that I can;t get complacent and know that I will never win.
Thanks to all of your kind messages, I feel that its time for me to offer the same encouragement to others that are in a dark place that could use some extra enocuragement and some harsh realities to give people hope. I shall start that this weekend.
Today I will not gamble
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