A fresh start

R1ck

Fella keep making the right choice,with it be honest,kicking things under the carpet now will lead to further issues down the road.

I keep that numb feeling I gifted myself through my actions at the front of my mind,it's a great way to answer addiction when it comes knocking.

Which it does.

I know I have written this before but through not gambling you will not add to the shi##t you created.

For that be proud,knowledge is a wonderful power.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

Hi rick

Well done on 4 days

And well done for facing up to your debts

It's hard when we realise all the financial damage we have done but as we start paying them off instead of doing more damage by trying to get losses back which we never will we are finally winning

Keep strong and positive and take one day at a time

Suzanne x

It's devestating to think of the situation I'm in but to be honest, I think I needed this to happen, to make me see sense. It was the only way I would ever quit. I actually felt suicidal on a couple of occasions recently and that has been caused purely by gambling. I should have everything yo live for and so much to look forward to but gambling has stole that from me and has caused this intolerable depression. If the way I'm feeling now isn't enough motivation to stop, then I will never stop.

Anyway, onto day 5. There is no chance that I will gamble today. I have no interest in doing so.

Hi rick

Sadly some of us have to get to this stage before we can say NO MORE I am definitely one I carried on and on til it beat me in every way and yes it then makes us feel totally sick inside to even want to play which is positive for us cos we then have time to build days up abstaining and each day we do move further away from the mess if it all as I have said the reality of debts is hard to swallow but they can be paid off slowly but surely and we can live an honest life because even one more bet could be total destruction and that is not worth even thinking about

Keep strong and pull out positives and take one day at a time on all if it and keep posting your feelings it does help cos our feelings change like the weather

Suzanne x

I can't believe it needed to go this far before I saw sense. Back in October last year, I swore to myself I would quit. Borrowed money to clear all my payday loans and everything was sorted. Then I started gambling and got all the payday loans out again, loads of credit cards and I've actually made things so much worse. Probably doubled my debt in that period. If I would have quit then, I would be in such a great position right now. But nothing I can do about it now...

Day 5 done. Had a few looks at some bookies sites today because I can't stop being interested in finding out the odds for things. Didn't even think about actually depositing though.

Hi rick

I did the same loans out to pay loans off pay day loans out to pay pay day loans off you are not on your own the whole got bigger and bigger and then you fall in to it

But you can get out of it now if you simply say no more

To it because if you start again you may not be able to get out of the whole and that is not worth even thinking about

You are doing soo well please don't spoil it by window shopping just let it go cos you will never win cos you will never stop

Suzanne x

Hi Suzanne, I'm gonna be on the payday loan roller coaster for a while yet because I can't afford to pay off 5k in the same month. But I can honestly say, I never want anything to do with them again. Easy quick credit when you're a cg is not a good thing!

Day 6 almost done. I had 20 quid and thought about gambling it, see if I could build it up a bit. I was thinking 20 quid doesn't mean anything to me, what harm can it do. But then I saw sense and kept the money. The 20 quid is irrelevant but getting into the gambling habit again would be devestating.

Instead, I won today because I did not play. Those bookies have taken far too much of my money. Not giving them a penny more!

Very well done for not doing that mate, cos we all know where that first 20 leads. I am like you even though I'm determined to quit I can't help glancing at the odds just out of interest. Need to find a way to just enjoy sport for what itus rather than looking for an angle all the time.

Well done again, that's a big victory for you.

R1ck

Fella well done for resisting gambling that money,my advice go purchase something that does mean something,something you can enjoy,whether that be a dvd,t-shirt or a pie just show yourself the real value of money.

For 'normal' folk the odds of winning on a event they have no control over the outcome of are stacked against them,through into the mix the fact we cannot stop once we get started and the truth is for us there really is NO value in gambling.

It will result in loss

Not just financial loss to boot.

You are doing something amazing by facing up to your shortfalls,yes the ride will be bumpy for a while,but there will be a light at the end of the tunnel

Gambling will blow that out!!

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

One week gamble free. Kept myeelf really busy today. Normally spend my Saturdays manically tracking tennis, golf, whatever other sports are on. But today, I was just able to keep my phone in my pocket and have a pleasant day. So much less stressful spending my weekends this way. Long May it continue.

u should be proud pal your doing very well

Hi rick

One whole week gamble free very well done

Suzanne xx

Thanks again for the support.

Sunday is usually the day I'm sat here watching the golf, stressed out of my mind, usually with thousands of pounds riding on the outcome. But instead I'm at peace, relaxed, watching the darts, which I have no money on whatsoever. It's nice to be able to actually enjoy sport for a change without the outcome mattering so much.

Even though I'm still extremely stressed about bills etc, I actually feel so much better than usual. The stress of high stakes gambling was making me feel ill everyday of my life. I don't miss it right now at all. Hope I keep feeling like this.

8 days gamble free. Can't wait for the days to rack up.

Hey Rick,

Thought I would drop by and see how things were going....Well....They going GREAT.

Well isn't it amazing how good it feels NOT to gamble....So why the hell do we do it!!!

Every faith in you fellah!

Sue x

Day 10. Still going strong. Had a bit of money for the last day or so aswell. I would usually have deposited it as soon as I got it but not this time. Wasn't tempted. I'm learning the value of money again. When I was gambling, it got to the point where I didn't even think a grand, 2 grand was a lot of money at all. I thought nothing about gambling those types of sums. But after surviving through these last 5 or 6 weeks on very little money, I've re-learnt the value of it. I've got 90 quid in my pocket and after living off a couple of quid a day, suddenly 90 quid seems like a lot of money.

I think I've turned a corner, feel like I'm living in the real world for the first time in a very long time.