A fresh start

Hi Sue,

We must have been posting at the same time there. Thanks for your support 🙂 hope things are going well for you too.

Hi rick

Well done for keeping that money in your pocket

Keep going and keep strong 11 days today

Stay positive

Suzanne x

Day 11. Haven't gambled but I'm really suffering from boredom. Gambling used to occupy all my free time.Think I need to find a hobby to replace it. I used to gamble non stop on my ipad or phone, from when I wake up until I went to sleep. Now I just feel like I don't know what to do with myself. It's a hard habit to break. But I know I have to do it.

r1ck

Fella it was said to me once that it takes 21 days abstinence to break a habit,then a lifetimes work to address addiction.

That statement I believe true.

The honeymoon period,the feel good factor that arresting the punt gifts,the novel feeling that not doing your bo##llocks without changing anything except not having a punt I believe lasts around ten days.

The maths is simple from that

Many folk go back at it,addiction sees the door left open so to speak and is back in your life and the cycle again begins.

Nothing changes if nothing changes fella.

Me I never felt comfortable in my own company,strange as in the bookies I would not utter a word to anyone,addiction telling me I was in good company!!

Today I embrace life and all it offers

Try things,catch up on all the things gambling stopped you doing

f**k I couldn't type two words before I started recovery,I did not have an email address!!!

Today I am learning to love the digital world lol for example 4od is fantastic,it's free and I am embarrassed by the stuff I missed !!

there is always something to do.

Something that's effect will be greater than having a punt will gift.

Embrace recovery,gift it but half the effort you gifted the act of gambling and the results will be there clear as day.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

Yeah you're right Duncs. The feel good feeling has gone. Just feeling a bit list at the moment. But today has been the first big test. Gf gave me 500 quid for bills. In the past, I would have gambled it already. But I've used it to pay my cards and stuff. So definitely feel like I've turned a corner with the gambling. But it hasn't just magically made me feel happier.

Spoke too soon. Slipped up today. The only positive is that I lost a fraction of what I used to lose and I've only gambled 2 times in the last 20 days. That's progress I suppose.

I'm just disappointed I messed up and have to start from scratch again. Nearly got to 2 whole weeks. I don't even know why I did it. I suppose the signs had been there the last couple of days. I was starting yo feel a bit lost and didn't know What to do with myself. I'm not gonna be too hard on myself. Usually when I relapse, I lose the plot. But I've nipped it in the bud. Not going to chase. Time to start again. Not going to stop trying to beat this.

Hi rick

Well done on nipping it in the bud you are much wiser now and in more control you are carrying on not starting again and you are a lot more aware and that is very positive for you

Suzanne x

I've put a couple of bets on over the weekend. Didn't even want yo do it but got depressed about my situation and tried to win some money for a quick fix. I owe 5k tax, 5k in payday loans and about 2k in vat, all due in the next week. Not to mention rent, 2 months car finance and my 5 maxed out credit cards. I'm absolutely screwed. Without gambling, I would have a large bank balance and lots of nice holidays. Instead, I'm working every single day, can't afford a day off. And What do I have to show for it. Absolutely nothing but a huge pile of debt. I have had my gambling under control girl the last month, 6 weeks of so. But I'm afrwid it's too late. The damage has already been done.

I'm a walking advertisement for why people shouldn't gamble. I'm severely depressed constantly and have completely ruined my life through gambling. I can't see how I can put things right. I will probably end up being declared bankrupt. Which means my career would be down the toilet. I can't forgive myself for getting in the situation. I hate myself so much.

R1ck

fella you have a choice to make,my advice throw yourself at recovery,f**k what have you got to lose???

you are still letting gambling cloud the vision,you are still letting addiction tell you that things will be different next time.

Have you spoken to the folk you owe money to?? or buried your head in the sand??

My advice gift recovery as much effort you have gambling,yes the ride will be bumpy to begin with,all he#ll might break loose,but I will tell you this,you will not find the answer by having a 'couple' of punts in the blind hope you will win your way out of a hole.

Gambling for the compulsive gambler is a progressive addiction in nature,the stakes grow,the losses with them,the ever decreasing self gifted misery will take all it has and leave you nothing.

Go see your GP,speak to netline,you are not alone.

You are a gambling ADDICT,to admit that takes great courage,it is truly a gift,one which will make you a winner.

I know it doesn't feel like that right now,my friend I wore those shoes for twenty years before my penny dropped.

Bottom line is you have to want to stop gambling more than your addiction wants you to gamble.

Take all the help and support out there,there is plenty,it's cost??

A choice

Abstain and maintian

Duncs stepping forward never back

I'm ashamed to say I've been gambling all through august. Ridiculous amounts aswell. I am 29 on Thursday. Will be 11 years of gambling. 11 years of my life wasted. 29 years old and I've got nothing to show for my life except a huge mountain of debt. I need to stop this now. I'm ruining my life and bringing all my loved ones down with me. Today needs to be the turning point.

Hi Rick

Sorry to read of your relapse but well done for admitting it and being honest

1/09/14 can be your turning point

Make that choice today to maintain and abstain one day at a time and don't look back yesterday has gone

Best wishes

Suzanne x

Back again. I have been worse than ever I'm afraid. I've spent the last 12 hours just wanting to die. Just want to take the easy way out. I think the only reason I didn't do something silly was because of my girlfriend and family. It would destroy them.

I've closed down all my accounts. It's now or never for me. I need to take back my life and not let this disease kill me. It's stolen 11 years of my life to go with the thousands of pounds. I think I've lost in the region of 100k now in the last 2 years or so. It makes me sick. Literally. I've had to have today off work because I could not sleep, was dripping with sweat and throwing up. Why on earth would anyone do this to themselves? I consider myself to be a rationale intelligent human being. Yet I have been acting like a deranged lunatic. I have regularly been staking probably upwards of 20k a day. As soon as I win, I smash it straight back on with loads of other gets. I then repeat this until the money has all dwindled away. If I can't stop now, then I doing know if I'm strong enough to get through it the next time I hit rock bottom, I've got to do this.

Hi

I was in your exact position a year ago. Funny enough in the end the money was not the end. I just could not live with myself anymore my head was always spinning and I just could not get a clear thought not everything is fixed nor has everything gone well but I am in a better place a year on. You can do this.

Michael