A new dawn

Day 70 gamble free. Finally reached the 10 week milestone. 

I have had a pretty good day ?

You should be very careful thinking about strangers ?

Im greatful tho. Thanks for checking in. I think we are on the same level...'re raw stuff..now forgive me if I'm wrong (you & boo are like sisters to me..i always mix you up!) but i think you see what i see in daily life..which is not Always pleasant..but we do what we do...intercep that rawness..offer some relief...peace.

I wanted to say im proud of you. You're doing well, please keep going.

Best wishes from your "neighbour"

S&B xx

? thank you for popping in Sandra (neighbour!)

Yes I think we see similar things in our daily lives. 

Thank you for your lovely words of support. It saddens me that you cannot open up as much as you would like to on here. We are in this together x

I suspected that the Rugby game would be a positive uplifting experience. I am pleased to hear that's how it was. I find family support in whatever guise it comes in, is hugely positive. 

I am very very proud of your gambling free time and the way you selflessly support everybody else in our Gamcare family no matter what you are going through. 

You know what I'm gonna say. 

You are a good egg!!!!

🙂 

? love you drama, thank you x

Day 71 gamble free.

Today has been a really good day. I have felt on top form after a decent night’s sleep. I have had a great day at work. I have been out and about in the streets with a group of women and other than being dressed entirely inappropriately for the bitter temperatures, it has been a fantastic and enlightening experience. I am pleased I had the chance to do what I did today.

Each day I think I am beginning to learn something new about myself and about my compulsive gambling and recovery. Today it has been a realisation that some of the times when I think I have had gambling urges, that probably hasn’t really been the case. I am beginning to understand the difference between thinking about gambling and a real urge to place my next bet. It maybe sounds a bit daft and should be something that has been clear but it just hasn’t. When I think of it in that context, I am not experiencing genuine urges all that frequently.

I am very happy with where I am at today, life feels good. Not too much else to say really.

Sounding good... Glad your journey is getting less bumpy 

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Boo x

Thanks boo, it seems to get bumpy after the evening chat at the mo, it is too busy for my addled brain! I may be better suited to sticking to the quieter lunch time one

I think you do a really good job of engaging with the new people when it's busy. I didn't appreciate that you might have been struggling with how busy it was. Sorry about that. I will be mindful of it in the future. 

D. x

Drama, thank you and there is nothing to say sorry about at all. I know I am not great when it gets busy and I need to handle that. I handle things so well at work in busy meetings or conference calls and I just need to apply the same coping mechanisms with chat. It's odd how my in work and out of work self  is so different at times. I find it bloody frustrating at times! Something for me to work on though. 

Glad to hear you sounding so content.

I can't cope when chat is busy, either!

Thank you Freda, it was super busy tonight!

Good morning, I am going to make sure I am suitably wrapped up today for work. It is a bit nippy outside❄️

I popped into netline last night. It was quite a different experience because I was feeling pretty good. I just had a few questions that I was mulling over in my mind that I wanted to talk through, I wasn't having any sort of meltdown.  The Gamcare advisor was amazing. I learnt so much more in the time that I was chatting. I had my thinking challenged, like I do in my counselling sessions. It was awesome ?

Day 72 gamble free.

I have had another good day today. I woke up with a spring in my step and it is fair to say that has continued. I am doing something really fascinating at work at the moment. I love it when I am doing things that really test my attitude towards people or groups of people. Things that expose those little prejudices that I probably never realised that I had. As much as I like to think that I have a very open and non judgmental approach, I am aware that I am influenced as much as the next person by societal attitudes. It helps me think about how people view my problem gambling too.

I had a mindfulness session on my way home. My first one. It was amazing. I probably went in thinking that I wouldn’t get much out of it but I couldn’t have been wider from the mark. I will be having six sessions in total. I can see how it will help me in a whole host of ways. I have an app that has lots of things on for me to practice. Hoping to try some out to get me to sleep tonight ?

I think hubby preferred me prior to mindfulness. Just thrashed him at scrabble ?

That’s it for now I think. I am really grateful that I feel as good as I do. I felt a bit guilty about the way that I was feeling yesterday but not today.

Have a good evening all x

Good for you murlo!!

may these good days continue forever more!