A new dawn

Have a lovely morning with your camera. Relax and soak up the weekend. 

Hope to be In chat later

Boo ?

Thank you Boo, just back home and I have had a wonderful morning. Beautiful day for it, lots of exercise too. 

Hello Diary.

Not too much to say about today really other than it has been pretty good. I got out with my camera this morning, it was beautiful. It really is lovely to have sharper senses again. I don't think I had appreciated quite how ill gambling had made me, it is a bit scary to think about.

This afternoon I went for a swim. I love water. I used to be a pretty competent swimmer, not quite so much now with my recovering leg but good enough to get a decent distance chalked up in the pool. 

Tomorrow is my 4 week gamble free milestone and the last day that I will see hubby for a while so we will make it a good day. Plan to walk into town, have a nice meal and just generally relax together. I must be so much better company for him now.

That is all really for today. Hope to join chat later.

The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago, the second best time is now - Chinese proverb.

Dear Diary.

Today has not gone as planned but I guess the good news is it is nearly over. Today I reached 4 weeks gamble free and hubby and I had planned a walk into town for a nice meal and some retail therapy. It didn’t happen. My demons well and truly surfaced this morning and I couldn’t face the world. I am gutted for hubby,it is his last day before going away with work for 10 days. I want him to be able to go knowing that I am in a good place. I haven’t been today.

Despite today’s struggles, I haven’t gambled and a bit of me is proud of that. I wanted more from today though. I wanted it to be my first Sunday since I reached out for support where I really felt in control. Maybe next week. Sundays are my bad days. I know why and I guess that is half the battle.

Thank you Kim for the beach inspiration. I have been this afternoon on my own and it was stunning. I dipped my toes in the freezing cold surf and kicked some sand about. It felt good and I feel better.

Tonight we plan a late night trip to the pool together. I really want to go and to spend some time relaxing with hubby.

I can’t shake this feeling off that he will go away with work and not come back. In a way I am glad I feel like that. I think it has helped me control my gambling urges today. If I fall off the wagon again I don’t think he could take it. I would like to talk to him about him about how I feel, maybe later tonight.

Every difficult day I get through will make the next one slightly easier. I truly believe that. One bad day in 7 is better than every day being a bad day. That’s how it was when I was gambling.

All in all, it hasn’t been a bad week when I look back. I just need to handle Sundays better. I am strong enough at the mo to reach out for support and I will if I need to. I am truly grateful for all of the help, support and words of encouragement that I have received so far. It has made a real difference. 

I am sorry that I forgot to congratulate you earlier on your GF time. 4 weeks is amazing!! 🙂 

I hope that each new GF day brings you comfort and peace. 

Talking to your fella about how you feel sounds like a good plan. 

Take care of you. 

Love from 

Drama x

Thank you Drama ?. Will definitely talk to hubby. 

Start tomorrow as you mean to go on all week.. Focused and strong.. 

Think of the last 4 weeks benefits plus  one more week..

I believe in you... You can too let you be the master of your mind not gambling.. 

Remember we are all fragile. And don't be using that pencil with the rubber on ???

Boo x nite n bless 

Why is it so hard to get rid of bad thoughts when good ones can pass by so quickly? 

Murlo is a charming soul who went in her mind to sow

Gamble-free seeds to brighten her life and quickly they did grow

Thoughts come and go and may persist but do not last forever

And though you'll miss your hubby you will soon be back together

Absence makes the heart grow fonder so the saying goes

Your gamble-free and cherished like a delicate English Rose

Stephen

Goodmorning murlo... 

Dig in with that grit and backbone. And look back this evening on todays success.. Boo x

Thank you so much boo, I have dug in today and all is well ?

Dear Diary.

Today has been a much better day than yesterday. A great day at work and a trip to the chippy for my tea on the way home. I am quite happy with my own company tonight.

Hubby will not arrive at his work destination until late. I am looking forward to speaking to him in the morning and telling him that all is well and I am feeling good.

Nothing much else to say really. Yesterday’s bad thought have passed, no gambling urges. First day home alone done, only 9 more to go.

No better reward than a chippy tea.. We're mending well.. Hope to be in chat later ?☕

We are indeed boo....cats got most of the fish but it was lovely nonetheless ?

Good morning, day 2 home alone and feeling fine. I could have happily stayed a bit longer in bed this morning but the cats were having none of it. Time to go to work. Hope to join chat this evening.