Abstain and maintain.Stepping forward never back.

DMac,

Thanks for the cooking lesson ref the risotto. I will be trying to achieve perfect risotto next weekend and will update you on the outcome.

I read your previous post with interest and will be honest about my feelings about GA. I think this is something that I would definitely benefit from but you are correct in that I do not have the courage to walk through the door. I continue to make the same mistakes and feel that I need a different approach which GA could provide.

The way in which you have opened up to the world about your gambling problems amazes me because I just couldn't do it and I know that that is part of the problem for me. I am still trying to work this out on my own and yet continue to do the same thing as I have been doing for the past five or six years. Basically, I continue to hide my gambling problems from my wife and family. Without being honest with them I don't see how I could ever attend GA. Secondly, I am afraid of being recognised and would never go to a local meeting. For you, this must seem like madness and must frustrate you but you have mentioned many times that people come and go and some only attend a few meetings never to return. I am worried about the guy who turns up once, recognises me and then never returns.

In all honesty, I feel like I am taking less and less from this forum and know that I need a different approach. For the whole of this year I have not been able to string four weeks together without a bet and my position never improves mentally or financially. This forum had a shock value which I used to my benefit when I first arrived but sadly that has faded after several relapses. I hope that one day I will man up and address this head on.

Tomso.

Hey Duncs,

Just popping by to wish you a lovely bank holiday monday and i'm sure you are enjoying every single minute of your time with your loved ones.

New life found, and you more than deserve it. Thank you for you continued support.

Take care

Sandra x

Hi Dunc's... Iv'e been reading some very inspiring posts of yours, both on my diary, your diary and others diaries. I find them very helpful. Thankyou.

Enjoy your time in Somerset/Dorset. That's where I grew up. Watch out for cow pats, of which there are many!! 😉 happy days... S.A 🙂

Hey Duncs,

hope that you are keeping well, and well done for all your efforts both in your own recovery and others, you remain a great source of inspiration for many on here!

Phil

Hi Duncs

Yesterday's post was lovely- a great demonstration of how life has changed for you over the months. Thanks for sharing it here 🙂

I thank you also for your continued support- I hope you're having a chillaxed bank holiday with the family!

Take care

Irene

x

DMac,

Your post on my diary yesterday has awoken me to my biggest problem ever and something that continues to hold me back.

Tomso.

Hi Duncs,

Great to read that you are still going strong.

Best wishes

No more

Hi Buddy,

Just checking it, it has been far too long. Pleased you are still leading the troops and that you continue to abstain from Gollum's greasy clutches. Hope the football is entertaining you, I thus far have been mighty frustrated with our bunch. I openly believe we'll come bottom with a pathetic points total but at least Cardiff proved against City, we call beat anyone or anything, if we put our minds into it, as with gambling it seems.

Keep up the good work, people might feel it is easy for you now but I am sure it isn't as you have to stay on guard the same as us, and I salute you for continuing to do so.

Andy

Hi Duncan,

Just popping in 2 say I hope u and ur family r ok 🙂

Have a gr8 day xx

Had to leave a message on my friends diary, So glad everything on gambling front is good!

Not read your diary for yonks but I just kinda know!

Things great with me. Am quite upset coming onto this site after being away so long and seeing so many new people. Well hopefully they can read our diaries and realize "there is a way out"

Madame Chaulaux (whatever)....Orinocco !!!

Wouldn't like to get away, somewhere where everybody knows your name!

Cheers Duncs! Hugs to Sarah and kids

Womble xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

morning diary

I am still at the steam fair enjoying all it gifts, great cider and real ale and best of all no phone signal!!! lol.

No bet for me and no intention.

in the words of Dr busker 'more beer more beer!!'

catch up with you all over the weekend.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Morning Duncan

Good to read ur enjoying the better things that life as to offer and one thinks ur entitled to a few beers its just great to read heartwarming posts like that and shows what life is all bout

Couldn't be happier for u

Castle2

Hey Duncs....OH I see ..this double meaning malarky ..going to get "steamed" are we? ..on beer? ..lol lol

You deserve it Duncs ..a well earned rest and recoup with your family..

happy Days ! Xx

Glad you are making some lovely memories. Used to watch the steam ploughing competitions when my children were little as my neighbour took part and built the steam engines - happy days before the devil entered my life. Throwing salt at him over my shoulder at the moment which he is not liking but seems to be working so far.

xxx

Morning diary.

just dropping in to say thanks for all the kind words, just travelling back from the steam fair, with two old sit up and beg bikes in the trailer which will be a project for the upcoming months, and a great way to fill the spare hours in my life.

Cant wait to see Sarah and those hounds although I have enjoyed not having to fight for bad space!! lol

Not had any urges to gamble over the last few days but have been thinking a bit about how to proceed with my own recovery, had a good talk with my mum yesterday and it left me thinking about using my time to the greatest potential.

Like my esteemed friend Sue I too am saddened by the new influx of folk who have appeared in the week since I have read any diaries but even more saddened by the folk who post a few times and then dissapear from the forum, I know only too well that old saying 'you can lead a horse to water but you can't make it drink'

As for the last half a dozen yrs of my active years as a compulsive gambler I was forced to stop many times, but without doubt the belief in myself I have today was simply not there.

I look forward to catching up with the forum over the next few days.

My name is Duncan I am a compulsive gambler No bet since 23/01/2012

Stepping forward never back.