Abstain and maintain.Stepping forward never back.

Day83.

morning all.

today It is great to be filling my brain with thoughts with something other than gambling and lying in bed last night I gave a thought to how much time I actually did dedicate to my addiction, without doubt for me the addiction got progressivly worse and in my final destructive bout I calculated I spent an average of 11 hrs a day at it! that time I know I cant get back I think I am working hard to cram the time lost into going full throttle at life today, a ride I am enjoying the downs as much as the ups. I with honesty calculated that I "quit" gambling 3/4 times a week whilst at it and woke each time after another restless/nightmariss sleep with not the passion for life I have today but a passion to get back on it to chase the dream!! Well today day 83 of adressing this addiction/illness,deasese or malfunction I have grown more comfortable in recovery daily, I want to live for today before it closes gets snatched away by darkness. I can see the light in front of me and I am determined to walk toward it,not look back into that darkness and those souless dreams.

just for today NO BET.

duncs compulsive gambler stepping forward.

Thanks Dunc for posting on my diary

Was a really difficult day but just being here has helped to support and encourage me to make the right choices in my life for a change!

Today i did not gamble and now after the sad day i do not want too!

It is great you are doing so well and supporting others in their quest !

Many thanks again

Lucy

I think your right Dunc as what you say on your post there applies to both sides of this generally speaking...

Being consumed for hours a day with whatever "thing" just as you say robs us of our passion.When we put our power in externals and not choose our thoughts and decisions but are controlled by those outside forces....we are generally stuffed.

I can be the same about my relationships..

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So as you say...we are here in the glow and moving on one day at a time and not going back.

thank you again for all your support....you are a valuable asset to this forum and have so much to contribute in reccovery .....

Rach and Doo xxx

Yo,

Just a quickly,

Sea or fire, sea or fire. I am quite intrigued as to which won will win. But know for sure , which ever it is will be lucky to get you.

Off to work now, and another rubbish dinner awaits later. Duncs where are you when I need you ?? Lol

Dusty

DAY84

dusty/rach/Nt/GT/smiler/ade/js123/keith and everyone else here "the gamcare family" thanks for helping me reach 12 WEEKS GAMBLE FREE. Today I thank of all of you that helped me reach 12 weeks in my fight to arrest this addiction that stole too much of my life and even more the time it stole from my beautiful wife(I thought my love could not grow but it does!!) and kids and I am eternally gratefull to have met/been touched by so many who hold out there hand to gude me toward that gamble free light.

And a note to all those through my journey have fallen from these pages I hope you are all ok and if you have fallen in your quests I hope you regain the courage to start again on a gamble free journey.

Duncs compulsive gambler 84days NO BET

(job news will follow tomorrow i am 90% sure lol)

Dunc,

Many thanks for your kind words of support on my diary page.

keep up the good work!

Best wishes,

gazza

Hiya Dunc...just wanted to say a hello and thanks for your kind words....you know what I love about this forum is the humility thats on here...a real humaneness that you only find with people serious in recovery really...and you have it in spades'

In 12 step I used to love "admitted my shortcomings"..had a list as long as my arm...still do ..but with this forum and good folk like yourself we can all work together to build harmony back in our lives no matter what "side" we are on.

In my diary I always tell it as it is as you know again so people can see my shortcomings and triggers and explain how i don't handle things well.Maybe it can give some insight into there own other halves behaviour that is bizarre .

Well....munching on wasabi coated soya beans but now the seed of G and B is planted again...could be heading to find that desssert....lol

take care ...always forward....never back...xxx

Well done on the 12 weeks it's amazing how u are turning ur life around and are appreciating all the simple things in life in ur wife and kids absolutely no reason to go back keep stepping forward , its great to read how well ur doin and still finding the time to help others

Be proud of urself

Castle2

WELL done duncs on your 12 weeks, read your last post about your wife, don't think of the last 20 years think of the next 20 years gamble free!! 😀 you made the step to change your life and you are winning! all the best and thankyou for your kind words of support always's cheers me up!

🙂 Hollie

Cheers again for your message today, I am sure you are OK, as steady as Eagle Eddie you are. 🙂 and no I haven't been drinking lol

DAY85.

Thanks all for your posts this journey is trully amazing it is like my eyes have been opened to what if you push yourself you can achieve.

Job wise I have made my choice I start on saturday in the place in the sticks so I have 2 days to prep myself going to dig out some of my favourates to put on the menu and start to gear myself up for what will be in the short term some crazy hrs to make my mark.

Now I am going to in my mind formulate my next set of targets ones which will come as a result of my hard work, these will include a trip for me and eldest to "the dorset steam fare" later this year, a winter break for me and the Wife a trip somewhere warm(log fires not sun lol) and some ink on my skin I am looking for a verse to serve as a reminder of this journey and to finish the sleeve on my arm I started and never finished through the fact I wasted all my money!!! These will be things I know through continuing to live Gamble free I can achieve.

I will formulate the list into dates as I find it a massive help to occuppy my brain with productive things and not odds and non existant form!!

duncs compulsive gambler NO BETS TODAY

Steping Forward Never Back.

hiya Duncs.....soon to be the proud owner of your Hovis.....I hope this doggy wuff realises how much love its going to get and what a lovely home to come to...

You must keep us all in the loop with settling in and sleepless nights..lol...days of having a baby remembered by you and your wife no doubt...

You must all be really excited and you will never regret it...mans best friend and all....or as I used to say....4 legs good ,2 legs bad...lol

Take care xxx...GB safe....got the thumbs up!

Rach and just going to collect Doo x

Hi Dunc

Good to see all is going well with you. Hope the job works out for you and I'm defo coming down to try your grub out one day and i'm sure we'll pass through on our way to see family on a day out.

Hope you can make it to GA meeting tonight, pass on my apologies, no bets since last meeting. Cheers

Keith

Day86.

Keith I will pass on your no bet news to the fellowship Well done.

I am taking delivery of a new member of the Mac family after 12 today we are adopting a whippet. It is ironicly an ex racing whippet who became surplus to needs as it broke its leg,so we feel we will dish it up lots of love and give it a life after racing maybe a bit like myself LOL. It does not have a name so my dear friend Rach named him for us "HOVIS". This is another thing made possible by the fact I have arrested my addiction and will be financially paid for by the fact I will be 9 weeks off the smoking tomorrow and could not think of a better way to invest the spare money, and to boot the spare time I have since I stopped wasting it in the bookies will be served walking! So to end another plus to add to the mountain that grows daily through my choice.

NO BET TODAY.

Ga tonight for another dose of my gamble free medicine.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Thanks for the post on my diary Dunc! 86 days! WOW! Well done mate! Lots of admiration for quitting the f**s as well. This will be my next challenge!!

Good luck with the new addition to the family and hope you don't have too many sleepless nights! Well done for taking one who was no longer needed or loved. Reminds me a bit of my pup at the time. Went to see a doberman breeder for a pup he was advertising and seen another there who had a massive abcess on his little head. The animal said he was gonna hit it over the head with a shovel to save the vet costs!!! I went absolutely crazy and took the pup with me and told the guy he was lucky I didn't beat him to a pulp!! Didn't pay for him, just took him!!! He's a healthy big 4 year old now and the love he shows me and my son is incredible! I hope you get the same love for you andd your family.

Keep up the good work mate

Ryan