Abstain and maintain.Stepping forward never back.

Hi Duncs,

Thanks for your kind words and support on my diary - much appreciated as normal.

Like Shiny said, that's a great last post by you there.

Luckily for me, FOBT's were never my thing. Can honestly say I have never played them once. And that is coming from a man who has been in betting shops 1000's of times over many years. The reason I didn't play them is because I see them for what they are. Manufactured computer programmed money making machines for the betting industry. That's my logic anyway.

My downfall was just pathetic fantasy bets on football coupons, Horse racing (which I know f**k all about!), and sadder still all these virtual horse racing S***e that makes my logic about FOBT's slightly flawed now!! As that is computer generated too!!

Rambling a bit now, but at least now we can both see all that s**t for what it is. A total waste of time. We now have far more important satisfying things to do with our families and friends, who are as far away from that fantasy world as possible.

Keep strong

Ade

Hi Duncs,

Yes, wonderful eye opening post. Thank you for sharing.

...did we finally stop placing that bet after finding recovery - f**k yes!!! We are better than them destroying machines

Have a good day and keep stepping forward 🙂

S x

Hi Duncs,

I have had a pretty lousy couple of months. I just wanted to thank you for sticking with me through it all. Somehow, a simple thank you doesnt seem to be enough? You may never really know how much your unconditional support has helped me along the way. Trust is something that does not come easily to some. You taught me that I can place my trust in the recovery process. I have and you were right. Thank you Duncs! -joanxxx

Hi Duncs,

Just want to say thanks xx

Suzanne xxx

Hi DUNCS thanks for comments and virtual pat on back ,your an inspiration to me and so many on the road to recovery, your posts are motivational and keep me focused on the task ahead. Onwards and upwards.Ginger

400 big ones enough said. regards Ginger

Just a flyer by....WHOOP WHOOP to you my friend 🙂

S x

Let me join in the chorus of congratulations Duncs, great work getting 400 days, and I'm sure there's thousands more to follow now mate. The changes you've made in your life and you posts on here show the complete positive embrace of recovery you have made. As always mate, you're an inspiration!

Ryan

Evening diary

Not been around the forum few a few days, I went to the doctors and was prescribed some tablets for my mindset, something to tame my overbearing need to be in control, which leads to a never ending struggle within my head.

I struggle with medication but will follow orders and see how things manifest.

I am not looking for a new or normal life, that I accept is not going to happen, I am anything but normal lol, I would however enjoy life without a war being waged in my head 24/7 and to be able to walk away from events without feeling compelled to try and make them better, and stop having my mind question itself at every turn.

This is peeling another layer off the onion so to speak.

So not wanting to cloud my mind I have decided the forum could enjoy a break from my inane ramblings lol.

I didn't recognise I had gone 400 days, I really have stopped counting, it can feel like my mind is counting down to the point where I think a punt is acceptable, which it is not.

Not at any odds or stake, it is a futile waste of time.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hi Duncs,

I am really sorry to read you have been to the Drs. I just want to say my friend, I totally understand you having a break from the forum, please take care stay safe and do what you have to do, always walking along side with you Duncs

Take care my friend.

Suzanne xx

Hi Duncs

Sending you all my best wishes my friend. Hope you get your head sorted and are able to find that inner peace you deserve.

Thanks for your recent support too.

Look after your golf balls mate, the rest is just sand.......

All the best

Ade

Yo,

Totally get where you are coming from. I myself as I am sure you have noticed have taken a step back, as this site recovery can be all consuming . I see this as the next step in your journey,

With that said, I raise my gambling free shake to you, and toast all you have achieved , along with your selfless support of soooooo very many ....

Stay well, stay clean .

Shiny xxxxxxxxxxxx

Hope your well duncs I too have realised the onion certainly has some layers I hope all ok you have been amazing on here an inspiration to many take care

the bear

Hope you are well Duncs, I'm delighted to see you have gone past the 400 day mark. Keep up the good work and I hope you are feeling better on your new medication. Thanks again for your support, I'm feeling much more positive right now.

My friend Duncan.

i read your post and was consumed somehow by the the thoughts that you are such a source of inspiration to so many on this site that it has probably begun to take its toll. After all said and done, i can sense in your writing that you become so emotionally involved with so many here, this is a gift you have from the heart. I myself have been extremly lucky to have received your unrelenting support something i will never forget.

Now my firend it is time to take care of yourself too, your deserve it.

Never above, never below, always beside you, Dark Place /