I made it through my first day.... im in shock tbh as I really didn't realise just how much my addiction controls me and my life!!! ive had the urges to play at different intervals during the day and kept myself busy. I'm going to bed early as this is the only safe way to get through the evening-my worse time!!!
Please please tell me these urges and fighting with myself get easier to deal with as the days progress????
I'm really trying to get to grip with the fact that I have an addiction I stupidly thought this would be easy as i kinda knew deep down it wasn't just general playing on the slots but i just kept kidding myself!
Is anyone out there that feels all of this im so confused 🙁
wow! I got through the last 24 hours!! It was so much harder than I thought it would be because i still thought that my addiction could be controlled (laughing to myself) I have had the urge several times but...went and did other things to occupy myself, not being on my lap top as much helps. I really hope this starts to feel good as that's what im looking forward to the most 🙂
Well done on making it through day 2. I can tell you that things do get easier, but they never go away.
Not sure what it is you are into gambling wise, but I find that no matter where you look there is temptation.
First things first you need to set controls on websites you cannot go on. There is software out there that can block sites. Also, it's worthwhile trying to bar yourself by self excluding from gambling sites.
Your doing the right thing by keeping yourself busy. I find it's when I am bored or watching sport that I have the urge.
Most importantly use this site as much as you can. My mistake was that I thought I had won so got complacent. I was up to 160 days and then massively relapsed, so I am back on day 2.
Good luck and hang in there as it does get easier.
Regards
Craig
Hi Craig thank you for taking the time to write to me 🙂 sadly I didn't make day 3 I fell with a bump but this time I have used a blocker and barred myself on as many sites as I can. My addiction is online slots in a big way and it's consumed my life, I mainly gamble in the evening but can get the urge when I'm stressed or just want that buzz! The difference this time is although I still feel the normal guilt, anger what lies am I going to tell today stuff I'm writing on here so it doesn't feel like I'm alone anymore 🙂
Oh and Craig good luck you have fone it before you can do it again 🙂
hello loopy
as your learning nothing easy about stopping this addiction
you could check out some other diaries especially duncanmacs worth a read for the suggestions
tri
My triggers were very much like yours, boardom in the evening and weekends when my wife worked. My achillies heel was online blackjack in the live casino. I also like to have a few quid when the football is on, which has never been an issue and never been more than a few quid at a time.
I am coming up for two weeks clear now from all forms of gambling and the feelings are diminishing to gamble slowly.
I have put the K9 block on my laptop (it is a free download) blocking ALL gambling related sites. I had my wife set up as the administrator so i do not know the password or anything to change this back on my laptop.
Knowing that this is in place has been a great help as knowing i cannot log onto a site even if i wished to has made me not have the urge to.
Granted i see the adverts when the football is on and for a split second have a thought but knowing i cannot even get access destroys that thought instantly.
Put the safety nets into place and stick to them, stay strong. If you genuinely want it enough you will achieve your goal of stopping.
hey thank you both I am slowly looking through the diaries but will check that one out Tri, and going to give k9 a go also!
I'm keeping myself busy at the gym every day now it keeps me away from the temptation to a degree anyway. At night I am trying different things to keep me on track! smashed it today just need to stay focused!! good luck all 🙂
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