Angel From Montgomery

Hi Joan

Happy new year

I can feel the pain for u at the moment and wish I could take some of it away from u , time is a massive healer and in time u will see what am amazing strong individual u r

That there for us all to see

Take care

Castle2

Thanks Paulds and Castle!!

Hi Diary:

I got through the day without gambling today. -joanxx

Hey Joan ....pulled my head outta my a** xx thank you xx

Hey Ya Rach,

Your head is just fine darlin... Selfishly, I miss you dearly but, I don't want to get in your way. You are making your Bee line to the truth and sometimes a girl just has to wait it out on the sidelines. I dooooo missss youuuuu!!!!!!! -joanxxxxx

Good Morning Diary,

Slept better last night. My guard is way up. Today, I am hopeful. -joan

hey Joan...your feeling it my friend and it warms me to know that you are going to your foundaatiion for strength to cope with prayer and mediation...

That serenity is within you and you will have the strength to deal with your loss...just got to feel it and let it out ....letting go also in your life right now.....letting go bit by bit of pain but holding on to Ed.

keep your guard up and in place lovely lady and keep talking and cuddling your doggies..

(((((((J))))))))

R and D xxx

Hi Joan,

Hope you are ok hun?

I don't really do quotes but found one for you

The pain you feel today will be the strength you feel tomorrow.

Hugs Sue xxxxx

Hi Joan,

I wanted 2 say a special thank u 2 u, ur post on my diary 2day meant soooo much 2 me. It gave me the boost I needed 2 stay strong. Thank u soooo much 🙂

I am always here 4 u 2, if u need me xxxx

Thanks Rach, Sue and Charlotte...

Hi Diary,

I am doing my damned -est to stay out of this rats nest. But, I am really starting to stress out a bit here. It feels like a line of dominoes falling down or a house of cards crashing down.. Makes me wonder about the foundation of this cyber support system. Is it a foundation of stone or of straw?? I don't know.. I am not going to despair. Not gonna "use" in any way shape or form -- just have been thru too much lately for that.. just feeling very very disappointed at the moment. Very reminicent of the kind of sh it that happens when there are addicts in active addiction in the family. Innocent people start getting hurt. It is time for healing now folks. C'mon already.. my is rant over.. -joan

hey Joan....throwinng the rope over the pond to ya...grab the end of it and pull pull pull....lets get this thing together again...

I think Duncs has also in a similar situatiion as i was with the full picture not seen..i trust he will see it and be back in his rightful place ...

This too shall pass....no matter whats going on we all have to stand in our own truth.

R and D xx.

hey Joan..

You did the right thing and i am trusting that our friend will be back as he will be very much missed....keeping up the faith hun xx

(((((J))))) xxx

Morning Diary,

Had to fight off some urges last night but, wasnt too difficult to do. Self destructive behaviour is out this year. What has been said about urges is true. They do not last long and if I can push thru them it gets easier. What is key for me is having a plan and some tools/strategies for getting thru them readily available. For some and for me too, it is doing some kind of task anything to redirect my mind. Around here, there is always something to clean or reorganize. I also like to read, watch ID (true crime show that I am addicted too lol) Historically pay day weekends beginning with Thursdays has always been a trigger but, even getting thru the payday weekends are getting easier. So, I guess for me today it is reminding myself of all of the progress I have made over the last 6 months. I was faced with 4 major stresses; my mom moving in,surgery, the holidays (not fun for addicts) and, the death of my big brother-- and guess what? I did not have to gamble about any of it and I did'nt!! Not too shabbie. Now am I complacent? LOL absolutely not. I just got thru describing my night with urges. Am I bragging a little? Yes I am. I am making progress and am proud of myself today. Have a whole day ahead of me yet so, will continue to take it a step at a time. -joanxx

Hey Joan,

As our Duncs would say "Be proud, very proud"

What an amazing asset to this site you are.......You are one hell of a woman........Proud to know ya!

Nuff said.

Sue xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hey Joan,

What you are going through shows how strong you are, sometimes we are stronger than we think.

You are right keeping busy is the key with those urges.

Here is one if you have trouble sleeping...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KE_hDWMftgc

i am walking with you along the path,

Paulds

Hi Joan,

U r such a strong person, even thru all the tough times that u have been thru, u r still gamble free and that takes a lot of strength!

I am so proud of u 🙂

Have a gr8 nite xxxx