Anon7 - Recovery Diary

Hi Anon

Welcome to this wonderful site and and very well done for admitting to yourself that you have a gambling problem

You are not on your own

Everyone on here is behind you glad you have started a diary it really helps to off load your feelings

Way to go on your new journey

Suzanne x

Hi Suzanne, thanks for the reply.

Few days off work so been to the gym this morning and travelling to see my girlfriend for a few days this afternoon.

No urges to gamble whatsoever, more just feeling a bit down that I let myself get into this situation in the first place, but overall day 2 is going well 🙂

hi anon,

welcome, i say this to pretty much everyone who joins now but this site is an amazing help the people on here will support you in anyway they can, im on day 45 now and when i hit rock bottom its this place thats got me here which i didnt think was possible.

Its totally your choice as to wether you tell someone or not, my advice personally would be to confide in somebody. anybody you trust as having that support (and in many cases that barrier) can sometimes help i believe that if no one knows then you have no one to let down (except yourself...is that enough?) hopefully you will be able to beat this before it becomes a life changer.

Good luck

jess

Hey Anon7,

First of all,great job on realizing you have a compulsive gambling addiction, that's the first step in the healing and recovery process. I would like to suggest reading my forum on the new members intro forum. All of the knowledge and info is from my compulsive gambling addiction center, I attended for 6 months. I also received great support on this site, and keeping in touch and a diary will keep you focused. Remember to take it one day at a time.

Chicagoguy

G.O.C. Slots

Last day of action 1/7/2013

Thank you for the replies, and thanks to those who replied on my new member intro thread. I will just post in this thread from now on.

It has now officially been a week (and a few hours) since I last went to the bookies 🙂

Sometimes it has been hard, with friends talking to me about their bets on the world cup etc, but I'm staying strong, because i know even if i did go to put a bet on the football I'd end up on the blackjack/roulette machines.

I've got rid of 1 of my 2 bank cards so now have access to much less cash on a daily basis.

Looking forward to making it through the next ten days before I go on holiday for a week, so if I make it through the next 10 days I will effectively be making it through the next 17 days if that makes sense.

It feels good walking past the bookies and resisting the temptation to go in, I feel sorry for some of the people in there.

All in all, still going well.

Thanks again

Another few days gone by without gambling, I'm pleased to be able to announce. Looking forward to enjoying the England game tonight, and being able to spend money on food, drinks, maybe even a game of bowling before, rather than losing it all on the bookies on the way to watch the match

Made it through the weekend surprisingly easily. I think the main trigger for me out of the 'triangle' is time, I would always go to the bookies to play on the machines if I had to kill some time, even if it was only 10 minutes, and would always stay longer and miss the thing I'd been waiting for in the first place.

2 days til I go away for a week, looking forward to totally clearing my mind and not having any urges for a week.

Still going strong

Hi anon

Looks like your doing well , I understand about the time situation , if you have time to burn you automatically think of gambling... You just have to think positive and use this site and read peoples stories and that will remind you it is not worth it.

Well done on your success and keep it , you can do it

Regards

Thanks Escobar,

4 weeks clean now 🙂

Busy week coming up at work with long days so hoping to make it to 5 weeks without too many urges.

Had quite a strong urge to go to the bookies just now, thats why I've come on here, read a few threads and now updating this.

Anon

Thanks for sharing,for your effort I salute you

For making the choice to log into the forum rather than gift the bookies your hard earned is testament to your recovery

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

Thanks duncs,

Same thing now, strong urge to go for first time in a while, was very close to going but managed to come on here and am now just going to sort some stuff out in the house for a while.

Nige

Hi anon

Well done on fighting this destructive addiction

Keep positive and stay strong

Suzanne x

Thanks Suzanne.

Ashamed to say it but had a slip today. Went to the bookies on the way back from work and spent half an hour on the machine.

Walked out even, which is something I don't think I've ever done before, but still very frustrating that I will now have to start again.

Lets try for another 6 weeks now

keep strong but what you now need to do is take a photo into that bookies and any others nearbye and self exclude straight away before any urges , no shame in that better than a life of addiction all the best , simon