back to the drawing board

Day 2....made a list of positive reasons yesterday to stop gambling.
I don't know if anyone else feels the same but I have this burning desire to be normal. To feel normal. To have thoughts in my head that non gamblers have.
I feel I have a whole secret world in my head no one knows about.
For me, this is the ultimate goal......AK X

Hi miss,

Welcome to this wonderful supportive forum where there are like minded folk that can relate to exactly what you are saying, and understand, I can relate to every word of feeling like the only person who feels like this.

You have taken the first very hard steps to now want to stop and you are on day 2 so very well done.

Take one day at a time, and keep posting your journey of recovery it really helps.

You can do this if you really want to, I wish you the very best on your journey and will follow your progress, it's time now to be kind to you, gambling is such a waste of our health, time, money and our lives.

Best wishes

Suzanne x

Thanks Suzanne for taking the time to post. It means another to me.
Yesterday was a difficult day. I have self excluded from all the sites I use but one gambling site emailed me and told me they had closed my account but could open it again just by logging in.
I was so tempted to have just one more go but thankfully I was strong enough to mail them back and insist they self excluded me.
Phew what a relief! I had survived the temptation. Feeling good about that today.
Keep up the good work everyone and stay strong xx

Hi miss,

3 days today, every time we say no to temptation it makes us stronger and makes us feel better within ourselves.

There will never be one more go, because we can't stop, but there is every go when we abstain because we actually win, not just money, we win ourselves back.

Well done on yesterday keep going.

Suzanne xx

Hi missab, just wanted to say great work yesterday 🙂

It beggars belief the lengths these companies go to...How on earth is an account closed if all you need to do to use it us send an email?!? Grrr 🙁

You're right to be proud 🙂 Normal is right round the corner, just keep fighting the urges - ODAAT

Thanks guys appreciate you taking the time to post comments and encouragement.
Yesterday was a bad day.. But a normal day, a day where me and my husband argued. A day where work was stressful etc but it was a gamble free day.... That's what counts.. Still having thoughts of gambling but I hope this will lessen as time goes by.
Stay strong everyone xx

Yes..I have done exactly the same stayed up all night, gone without sleep. Had to work whilst exhausted. It's quite ridiculous really!
Besides the money we waste we certainly waste alot of time too.
In the main I have had a good weekend. Was working all weekend which keeps me busy.
I still have urges but my gamblock on my phone stops temptation.
Gamble free since 3rd March.
Take care and stay strong xx