Well day 50 came around today and looking back and reflecting on your recovery is an important step to understanding and betterment of yourself. Some will have known me from day 1-2 and know how far I have come others will not but in short I came here at rock bottom, on the verge of losing everything that mattered to me, truly lost, hopeless and alone scared what was next, if you'd have told me in just 50days my life would look so different if have laughed but the truth is in Just 50 days I have gone from rock bottom, hopeless alone and scared of the future to being happy, accepting of my past and mistakes, owning my errors and learning to be vulnerable, honest and authentic and have started therapy to address the root of my addiction, I have started writing my story from the very beginning and for the first time in my life I'm able to look back on the trauma of my past and see the positives of how it shaped me and not feel the shame, the pain and the anger. But now I'm waffling I normally write my posts in advance and then structure them and order it so it's a nice read... Today I opted to waffled words onto paper in the most authentic manner no edits, no rewriting just waffle. But the truth of the matter is 50days is just the start and in that time I have made some lifelong friends, learnt to connect with people and learnt to work with myself not against myself, this community has been vital for that, the friends I've made here not only grounded me, but encouraged me on my bad days, pushed me forward when I was stuck and changed my perspective when I felt all was lost. I'm forever grateful for this community and the friends I have made and more than anything I'm grateful for being able to accept I am an addict and I do need help, and the only way forward is one day at a time, one moment at a time and no regrets. I will be in the chatrooms tonight and replying on here but that's all the waffle for nowÂ
Much love to you allÂ
Hi Chefjake
Just wanted to at a huge well done on your reaching 50 days g.f 👏👏👏👏. Life will certainly get better and better in every way, the further you distance yourself from gambling 👌.
Take care and give yourself a little reward for this mini milestone 👍.
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
@j5a6meyr4z thank you pink lady, yeh I honestly didn't realise how bad life had got because of my gambling a mere 50 days and I feel like a different person, different attitude much more patience for my two boys and way more open and honest with my wife, sometimes in life you just need to take a leap and see where you end up and I couldn't be happier with where me and my family are currently. Therapy is really helping me address my past and understanding how or why I acted the way I did not only gambling but addiction as a whole over my life and the choices driven by it, so I'm in a much better place mentally too
@zq7i2rjg1p Hi Jake
This is lovely to read!👌.
Keep up your good work and keep improving yours and your family’s future. You have got this!💪🙏.
Hope you have a loverly weekend.
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
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