So after gambling for around 15 years I decided to give it a go at becoming gamble free after numerous times losing more money than I liked and becoming withdrawn and moody when not gambling or losing heavily .
I have been popping on here reading peoples Diaries and have got alot from them and they have helped alot .
My urges come and go , at weird times also , football is always a trigger but for the last 10 weeks I have been able to enjoy watching the games and not wishing for a goal or whatever .
I dont go to any meetings , I am trying to do it this way and see what happens , maybe that would be an avenue if I fall back into it .
I have been in a hole so many times with gambling but managed to keep afloat without many people knowing about it including my Wife . It was getting to a point where it was taking over my life and really affecting my moods so I knew I had to try to keep it under controll .
It can be done but you have to take 1 day at a time , I can go weeks without an urge then 2 days with loads, its so hard and I dont think ur ever out of the woods with it , one bad day , one urge too many . I know if I do one bet then I will keep betting and lose alot of money so thats where my heads at .
I am aiming for the big 100 days which will be just before new year , even thinking of that is scary but its what has to be done to make my life a better place . I have tried so many times previously and failed , this time I have had to tough it out , its not getting any easier but I am hopeful I can reach the target .
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