Q: Quirky
& not just me! We all have our own little quirks & the NM mmm, mmm, mmm-ing like he's just had a delicious meal, for no apparent reason, is just that & doesn't need me freaking out @ him when he does it.
Quaff: Completey irrelevant word, but I like it.
I thought Q would be difficult but no! Great contributions!
Hello, thanks for all the contributions today. I'm getting ok with my present situation and have time to reflect. I have heightened emotions and erratic behaviour due to coming off long-term dependency on tranquillisers as well as addressing the gambling but that is no excuse for any of what I believe as an individual has been inappropriate behaviour here or elsewhere. I've taken onboard lots of things online and in-person but have to accept my mistakes, chatroom exclusion and moderation. The main thing - on this forum - is I am still bet-free in my own way. Also strangely, I'm kind of glad I'm being moderated as it makes me more careful and considerate about my diary entries although I don't think 99 per cent of the time I said anything offensive on my diary. Best wishes to everyone and again please constructive criticism welcome but nothing else as I am still quite upset, Phil.
R: Responsibility of our actions.
Something I'm still working on.
Same here and thanks for the contribution. R - realisation
R = Rooting - for all on here to remain strong and g.f!
Our Lady
Nice, Our Lady. Thank you.
R: Rollercoaster
of emotions but understandable after so many years in hell.
Great contribution. Thanks ODAAT!
And Our Lady
Hello - hope everyone is OK. It does feel weird not being able to join the chat but as I posted before that is the bitter pill I have to swallow and accept. In some respects I think I became dependent on the chatroom but genuinely feel I wanted to help other recovering CGs in my own clumsy way but accept the provocative comments I made were wrong and spiteful apart from one which I tried to explain about but the topic is now locked - fair enough. Anyway, another day bet-free, reflecting on my behaviour (somewhat lonely) and hope no-one will respond in a hostile way as I am just expressing my feelings and learning curve and am still upset to some extent. Best wishes to all in recovery - whatever way the journey is going. Phil.
It is lonely doing this @ times, especially when we're trying to make sense of our spinning emotions with our addict's brain. Betting will not help you be a better person so keep reflecting & if possible use the time wisely, either looking after yourself or with others. Hopefully by the time you return you will be able to see how comments can be painful no matter how well intended & misconstrued, especially as words on a page with no body language besides them.
The only person you have to help is you, wanting to help others is great but don't let it define you.
S: Salvation from the grips of nasty addiction...by choice because we all have it!
JFT
S = Solace - instead of the madness of gambling!
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