Diary of boo radley

Morning rainy Wednesday. 

Thank you all who popped in on Sunday the afternoon was swell. 

Could have been warmer but it didn't stop the laughter. 

I'm ok as hope all on here are too and no one is be too tested with lockdown. Etc. 

Rainy here and I am going to  take a stroll to our local indoor Market. Nowt lavish but I do like to support and the veggies are good.

Gambling ads have made a come back and as much as I say they aggravate they really are often. Aggravate not so much me but I feel for the knowledge of what it can do and I know lockdown will draw people for the thrill of the chase. 

Managing a bit of flow running and chat. Which benefits my head so much. And am eating more sensibly again. Oh boy food is so comforting when mind and body are I. A strange place like the first few weeks of lockdown.

Anyway till laters 

Take care boo ???

Hello all. 

Not written since last week but then not a lot going on either. 

Life is, settled at the mo. Lockdown easing although I'm not rushing back into it just yet. 

Out for a run with the girls soon. All remit of distancing. Taking flask. Picnic table chair for post run chat. 

Work is as busy as ever. But it all keeps me boredom at bay. 

I've managed to shift a couple of lockdown excess pounds. My own own bad habits of eating during initial anxiety of lockdown. Still about 3 to shift... But food is so comforting at these times. 

I've got a book on the go. A jigsaw to start. And Im currently getting printed off my photos on phone and putting them in an album. I've collages many therefore less to print. 

Weather here letting some sun creep in.. Would be good as I fancy a nice long walk tomorrow. 

Anyway all for now. 

Take care all 

Love boo 

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Hi boo just pop in to say glad to see you are well hope your scotty is ok and not getting up to much mischief like my 2 one dig up my lettuce and eat them and the older one just made the hole bigger and sat there like it was not me dad it was her but would not be with  out them I have been GF for 123 days going on nice walk wife wife and daughter later so stay safe and hope to catch you in chat soon scotty ???

Good Morning Boo,

Thank you for the message you posted on my diary.

I’m happy to read that you’re keeping active and busy. I think that is the key during these difficult times. Your balance sounds great - running/walking alone or with friends, books and jigsaw for quiet time and being out at work a few days per week makes for a perfect balance.

You have done such an amazing job in dealing with your recovery from gambling.  

I continue to look forward to life returning to to way it was pre-Covid. I have concern regarding how long this will take although we’ve all come such a long way and things are changing every few weeks now.

I need some sun for my grass. I’ve done a lot of work in the garden. I’m out there watering for about 45 minutes every night which I find quite therapeutic. Now I just need some sunshine and heat.

Have a nice day.

RR

Morning sun at last. 

Not had a bad week all in all. 

Went a walk to see my sister the other day and passed a little town amusement arcade casino. Sort of held my breath as I walked past as it was open and I didn't expect that. Couple of folks stood outside. It didn't hamper me in any way more a sinking feeling thst people would be going in lured by this horrible attraction. Enchanted by the thoughts of winning. Still that's beyond my control. 

So I've ran and walked this week. I've entered the great North run virtual race. 40 runs walks up to 13th September. Donation to covid and a medal Sent. I'm enjoying it too as I won't actually be taking part in actual event which is next year now. Also doing other virtual runs locally. Time my runs. Download and send to race organiser and certificate and medal again sent. Also got book on the go. Jigsaw as always and still trying to get rid of last 2lbs excess lockdown blubber.

Went out yesterday.. Yippee.. 1st outing proper. Pub lunch. Hubby daughter self. Very nice too. Just to our local.. 

Anyways need to meet a run buddy soon. 

Stay safe all 

Boo ????

Hello diary. 

Had a lapse of days writing. Work etc been busy. Ive been ok. 

Tnings getting more normalised now. More folk about. Supermarkets open 24 hrs.

If im honest ive dreamt and thought of gambling. Not acted on it though. Suppose there will always be moments.

Im managing to keep walking running and working. I count my blessings 

Hope everyone ok. Till later 

Boo ???

Another rainy day. 

Slept well but feel achy. Not poorly just been busy with activities and work. Time to take it easy few days off. 

No urges no gambling. But still get a longing feeling at times of why and what a waste. But I then focus on the better things I now have in life. 

Got a busy day today so before I know it tea time will be here. 

I hope everyone else is doing OK too. Lockdown eases but does that make anxiety easier is another question. I know a lot of folk still have concerns but my feeling is to develop my own new normal. 

Anyway till laters 

Boo ???

Good Morning Boo,

I hope you are enjoying some relaxation and allowing those aches and pains to fade away.

Also, leave all that gambling baggage in the bin where it belongs. Your on a new path now and have been on it for a long time. Things improve with time and continue to get better. You get to enjoy that now because of the continued effort you’ve put into your recovery.

RR

Well the weeks are flying indeed. Normality seems to be setting in. I'm ok at the minute. Keeping occupied. Getting out n about within remit of guidelines.
Waiting for someone to get back to us on doing a garden makeover. It's looking sorry for itself.
Gambling.. Well I haven't. I won't say I don't have a thought on it some days. Not so much an urge more a total mystery of how it absorbed me.
I have to nip to town today to get new specs. Test all done last week.
Although I don't write much now I do pop in to read diaries.

Anyway all for now. Take care all boo ???

Morning. Looks to be another roaster. 

I sat watching the film battle of the sees last night. Tennis. Billie Jean King v Bobby riggs over the fact women's tennis paid less so they had a match. Obviously money was involved. A winner a loser. Back in the 70.s. Transpires he was and carried on still  being a gambler.  And still after enormous humiliation carried on. He was shown at a ga meeting in the film saying they were there as they  were bad gamblers and they needed to teach themselves to be better ones. Make of it what you will. It almost cost him his marriage too. 

As for me. Steady pace easing self into what will be normal. Life for a while midst covid. Still no. Gambling and not far off a year now.  My mind drifts occasionally to a what if. Shall I. But it passes I'm thankful to say. I'm still feeling strong enough to say no. Long for it to continue.

Enough for now. Need to get on with the day ahead. 

Love to all on here and who read this. 

Stay safe boo ???

Midweek  already. 

Can't believe totting up time I've been here at gamcare for 10 months.. On reflection many thoughts and ideas have ran through my mind. It was always the right thing to do. Not always easy and still have some little nags which get more comfortable to deal with. There'll always be what iffs and whys but surely if we stop. Questioning and become complacent then was the fight ever worth it.

I'm off shortly for a park trot and coffee with friend. 

Stay safe all??? Boo 

Hi Boo,

Excellent diary entry! So pleased to read all is ticking along at the right pace. 

When you arrived to the forum, you immediately mastered the most important piece in recovery - being kind to yourself and looking after you. These acceptances gets the wheel of recovery rolling.

Doing the hard job what needs doing in order to progress with your journey, yet finding time for yourself and what makes you tick.

Be very proud, you're doing great!

S&B xx

Hello diary. 

I don't write as often now but I'm OK and think of you all. 

Nearly 12 months on and feeling better for it.

I'm out in the fresh air. Feel a more honest person. I spend and save but have more respect for money now. Its no use keep dwelling thst just pulls me back. And I need to keep a good focus and keep strong in mind and body.

Hubby retired too now so that again all change to routine.

Our little scottie is nearing 14 years next month. She's slowing down now. Still eating well. But short walks. Longer sleeps and likes to retreat to her little den which is under a coffee table in the corner. She shows no pain. Eyes still bright n sparkly and she patrols the garden and barks at neighbours dog. 

Anyway off for a walk soon.tske care all 

Boo ???

Hi boo , 

nearly 12 months that’s flew by , your doing really well , hope to catch up with you soon in chat I’ll be on the one tomorrow at ten if you can make it ?

Good Morning Boo,

Just a quickie to say I’ve loved following your diary and progress. You’re doing amazing and I suspect you are a fabulous and lovely person. Keep going, keep up the good work.

RR