Yes, digging deep into the relational emotional field of my existance which is huge and very very much central to my life. I struggle and have been struggling for years , long before I sat in front of a slot machine cringing at losing $xx only to look back at prob. $xxxxk down the tubes ... approaching 15-20 years later. A crisis does not cover pain and struggle, it only adds to it. A day of numbing oneself to their/our problems is only a day, we/I can not remain numb walking zombies. I can not just stop gambling and feel the well being that I crave. Addressing my pain and struggle is paramount. I have shifted my focus to working with codependence and yes, maintaining blocks, resources and commitments around compulsive gambling. There is no easy answer and this post does not do justice to the whole picture recovery from cg. But, this post speaks to a important piece for my recovery which is going to have to go deep and not be covered if I am to continue to create a life of greater well being for myself. Even if I could just stop gambling forever, it would not be enough becaause I'd be like a hurting addict who is not in action. Some call this the 'dry' addict. I like the coda program , I've returned to do this work many times and this time it feels even more 'right'. tara2
Hi, I’m 25 and started gambling 3 years ago. I know I’m ruining my life so early but the feeling to gamble can be overwhelming. I’ve lost so much money over the years and I work so hard for it. I’m a nurse and work all hours I can just to spend it on the roulette wheel. I should be saving and treating myself but I make life hard when it doesn’t need to be. My addiction is becoming scary and my day to day life is just full of regret but yet I continue to gamble?
Hi barbsleigh if you start a new topic you will get more responses. You could start your own diary too. Sign up to gamstop asap. Put blocks in place. Tell someone, get help. GA meetings, gamcare counselling. Keep coming here for support.
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