Documenting my journey

Sjwsjw a few words you have written have really made me think and also made me emotional ....actually I do find it easier to talk about things....we talk so much more about the reasons behind my gambling and the reason why it escalated out of control.
I've had such a bad childhood and very little love in my life shown by my family but I have never let it effect my life except that it made me long for a family of my own. My husband and I were expecting our 1st child and it meant so so much to me but unfortunately it was Ectopic and I needed to have surgery 4 months ago. Things got pretty bad for me gambling wise and I racked up nearly 6k in debt.
I'm not using what I went through as an excuse for my actions by no means but when you're feeling low you don't necessarily think straight. Money had lost its meaning and value to me, I'd lost the one thing I'd dreamt of, a few more hundred quid was nothing. Before you know if you've spent thousands. As I think back over the last 4 months yes I regret what I did but I'm so proud of myself for pulling my life back on track and asking for help and admitting what I had done.i could have gone on and on doing the damage.

It's a long road ahead but I've come so far already.

Hi Slot Fool

Congratulations on your first month gamble free. Keep up the great work.

46 and Out

Thanks 46 and out 🙂
126 days is awesome. Well done, keep going

Im glad you feel like you can talk about things. It's a big part of recovery and moving forwards without the gambling.

More often than not there are reasons (not excuses) for our gambling habbits. With the right support we can work though it.

44 days gf now. Had a busy couple of weeks and haven't been on forum much. No urges no issues, feeling good 🙂
Merry Christmas

Congratulations, 44 days is brilliant but also no surprise when you see how much effort you've put in to tackling the problem, You shoud be proud of yourself! Have an amazing Christmas!

James

Hi James, thanks for the message. Wishing you a Happy Christmas and New Year. 🙂

So it is Christmas Eve. I have no Christmas jobs to do today. All presents and cards are delivered. Food shop is done and another massive chunk paid off my debt. I've gone from nearly 6k to just over 4k in 44 days.
Plan for today is to hit the gym and do the odd bit of cleaning, might even make a nice dinner for the husband before watching movies all evening.
It may sound like I'm taking this all in my stride and finding it all easy but recovery is hard work and you really do need to put blocks in place and work at it. I have a plan and a budget that I stick to. I have the support of my husband and hobbirs to focus on. I workout and study which keep my mind occupied.
This time of year can be really difficult for gamblers and I hope we find the strength to stay strong and stay on the path to recovery.
I want to walk in to 2018 with my head held high ready to tackle whatever life throws at me knowing that my gambling addiction is under control
Merry Christmas and Happy New year to you all. Take care and go steady. One day at a time xx

Hi

It's a great feeling when payday comes around and you make a dent in debts as opposed to getting deeper into debt. It sounds like you will have a lovely stress free Xmas. Congratulations on focusing on so many positives and taking up new hobbies to keep yourself occupied. Have a wonderful Xmas and very best wishes for a gamble free 2018.

46 and Out

Thank you very much 🙂
Wishing you all the best for 2018 xx

Bullseye!!

Hey there Slot Fool,

You are doing brilliant! Really pleased for you, so brave to tell your husband and it’s great that doing that has worked out so well too. Getting 6k down to 4K in 4 days is brill too, that must feel great. Keep up the good work, we believe in you. Happy new year :). Chris

Hi Chris, thanks very much for your message. Happy New Year to you too. We are all in this together and I hope 2018 is a great year for us all. X

Hi Slot Fool,

I loved your 'Bullseye' comment from yesterday, congratulations on achieving a fantastic milestone.

You are right we are all in this together, let's stick together and remain gamble free.

Very Best Wishes to you for 2018.

46 and Out

Hi Slot fool,

Thanks for the post on my diary and congratulations on over 50 days gamble free. That is amazing. Looks like the debts are getting pounded as well which must make you feel loads better. Hope you had a nice Christmas and New Year of which will be gamble free 🙂

Regards

James