Don't look back too much, dont look forward too much, im looking to my PRESENT moment adam123

So true Adam, one day at a time. We can only affect the future by what we do today.and.sounds like you had a good one mate

Hey stuart thanks for popping by.......  Today ive had a pretty good day.....went to work....done a lot at work...... done average steps but didnt feel like going to gym after as went last night.....  Looked at fant team and decided to not do my tripple captin..... so now even tho ive got three arsenal players id like them to concede goals to reduce peoples tripple captin scores....then palmer and pedro done well for me so that good..... Spurs almost got pulled into the relegation battle today but thnakfully a last second goal meant that west ham still five points behind us which is huge......

ive done 34000 steps first three days so that fine......

Nothing more to report apart from grinding thru the week already wednesday tomo so that good.

evening.....another day grinded thru..... days are getting lighter slightly later now which is a good sign we all got thru the winter.... work is going ok just getting everything done and staying out of trouble.....watching the footy this week has been good..... semenyo and haaland done well for me tonight.......wolves defender done well......more of the same needed tomo night please........

paid for a meal in staff canteen yesturday and it was really nice..... however got to watch the spending so wont do it again for a while.....got some milk tonight...... will need some bread tomo..... and will get some crisps and more milk (as i got coupons) then im sorted for the rest of the week i think.....  trying to tighten my belt a bit.......  brilliant soo far this month ive spent 24 pounds after bills,,,,, all on food...... plus a game for 35 pounds which im getting from my folks for last christmas present......  ill see if i can come in for the month at under fifty...... which would be great..... ive got plenty of food in....... ive got sausages and eggs pizzas and a few steaks......  next month ill need to get more soups for lunches so ill keep an eye out for deals.....

Im on 46,500 steps for first 4 days of week so average of 11500 so that great monday really put me in good position......

Hi Adam

You really need to be interviewed by Martin Lewis on how to live on a budget. You are amazing on that side and so happy with your life . Something for me to aspire to 

Stuart 

hi stuart thanks for popping by....cheers for comments..........  yes im really loving life at mo...... plenty of footy on tv....... plenty of gaming....... plenty of coffees..... plenty of steps done 14200 today.....61000 for week........ rest day saturday......

Went for a few coffees today with a friend......  was nice.....  then back home playing gran turismo done 87 percent now..... looking to complete the races side of it soonish   theres like 30 races left then ive done them all in first place.....

Well i missed yesturdays check in for some reason? not sure what it was....... yesturday i went to sainsburys after work and got some mac cheese, garlic bread, bacon, tobasco sauce, came home ate the mac cheese then a bath and i think  i must have played some gran turismo...... then slept for 14 hours ,,,,,,, (sleeping bueaty i hear u say lol)...... then woke up 2pm today..... had sausage, eggs beans and toast for lunch..... then played gran turismo for a few hours...... ive now managed to get it up to 89 percent..... 230 races ive come first in now and theres only about twenty odd left..... (very difficult ones tho)...... so ill try and do those over the next few months...... i actually got 825,000 credits for one half hour race today so will defo do that again when saving for the legendary cars (i need 20 million more credits now)......so with that race it would only take 10 hours ish so thats do oable.....

then went to gym and had a bath and went on chat now bit of gamcare...... bit more gran turismo maybe...... maybe some boxsets and bed..... then tomo more of the same..... think ill do a bit of gym tomo..... need to stretch my legs again.....

night

Im now in bed after a nice day.....

Im thankful in recent weeks that ive not had many sleepless nights thru voices........ i usually get voices after seeing certain friends....... and ive not seem them this year and as such this year ive slept well and havent been having voices overnight which is great......  Had my injection weds and no issues whatsoever on that front...... so may look to keep to myslef for another month to see how that goes....

Ive just looked at my finaces and only spent 36 pounds this month after bills (all on food)......  will aim to spend 14 pounds on milk and bread and eat whats left in my freezer for the res tof the month...... Then will be a total of fifty pounds for the month which would be my best yet.   Its actually since ive deleted my spreadsheet that ive had my best results,,,,, im not looking as much but am doing really well..... think ill give the canteen meals a miss tho as can eat much cheaper without.....  Then start of next month ill get a lift to sainsburys and do a big months shop..... need soup, milk, bread, tea bags, sweetners, potatoes, carrots, freezer things etc pretty much need everything..... So will go early march.....

It was my rest day today but went to the gym and done 6k which is great...... i do get achy legs when i dont do anything....... tomo ill do a bit too i think a long with some gaming....... Also bacon sandwich tomo will be nice.

Recovery wise nothing to report........ All going well.

I booked a week off work mid week last week as was feeling tired for early march but my mum thought as weather poor and early in year still its a waste....... so i cancelled it and will see how far i can get into the year...... ttbf itll be niced to be off when its sunnyy...... cant wait for summer months getting a tan in my garden every afternoon...... ive still got tanned legs from last year actually....

quick update....... woke up midday..... went to gym..... got coffee..... invited friend over to play gran turismo...... now chilling..... Fresh new week.... lets go

I don't often talk about my mental health on here anymore...... I have skitsophrenia and generally speaking I get voices in my head that lead me to believe in things that aren't real be it spiritual things or things of beings from other planets or people that are no longer alive speaking........ Now thankfully I don't have full blown episode and have to have time off work very often ........ My voices now generally happen mostly on Saturday night after I've seen close friends .this pattern has been evident for a long time.  

Now over the course of two months I've not seen close friends just seen family and work colleagues....ove4 this time I've been much better not hearing voices at all..... 

To the point where tonight when I heard voices I was actually strangely relived for some reason.

But is it t not seeing those close friends that's helping or is it a coincidence?

Either way I'm thankful for some respite.

Evening dear diary..... didnt post last night as was super tired........  Sunday night at midnight i knew i wouldnt get much sleep...... so i cleaned my flat...... then four am made breakfast then went to the gym at six am..... then went to work at 8am....... then after work id done 19k steps and was shattered so went and selpt till 5pm then dinner then slept again till morning......back to work again today and went well...... then to dentist after work for check up...... then booked appointment for two fillings......... then dinner and chilled now going to bed again.........work agian tomo another day...

All the best adam

Another day done...... went to work and got a lot done.....not many steps..... came back and rested....then a friend came over i cooked us fish cakes and lemon meringue pie....then watched footy....great result for me./....happy days.....onto work tomo

another day feeling lazy....need to do more at work....ill strive to do more

Been thinking I'm quite a lazy person...... I've never managed to do well at my career side of life even tho I think about it a great deal thru my everyday life..... I strive for good feedback......I take criticism very very badly....and although my current manager is a perfect fit for me not criticizing and being supportive I don't act perfectly at work...... I talk to people quite a lot when I could be grafting..... I take a tea break when I've been told not to ...... I do get all my responsibilities done to a high standard but I feel I can graft a bit more to be more of an asset.

I'm going to c what I can achieve in the next thirty days to see if I can make a difference to my achievements.

I need to cut myself a slight break tho as I am quite critical of myself thru different aspects of life.  I'n every other aspect of life be it spending, not partaking in vices going to the gym, spending time with family, family responsibilities etc I feel I'm over achieving and am very happy.  Also dealing with my skitsophrenia took me to a point where I just wanted a normal everyday life and holding down any job is a task alone for me.

So overall I just want a bit more belief that I'm doing the best I can at every aspect of my life and feel better about myself and not that I'm lazy.

All the best adam 

Another day done..... gamble free..... Went to work and grafted..... great start to the day..... got a lot done..... happy with today....... will make sure im grafting each working day for next 30 days to see what i can achieve.

wsas tired after work so had a sleep......

Im ready for fant footy..... was debating using tripple capt this week but i feel its better having an ace up my sleeve for later...... im 44 points behind first lets see if i can come back more this week.