fallen again 4th fed 2019

You have done it for 10 months do it again. Block online gambling, self exclude at the shops! Don’t give up, there is only one winner x

i tried blocking it with betfilter it wouldnt work on my computer so its been a constant temptation, i have a phone also . today is the first day ive not gambled in sometimes i am on edge.ive told my partner some but not all of what went on.I thought i was over this i thought i could handle it but i was so wrong ..its always been online gambling for me rarely gamble in shops i wouldnt like to be seen

Have you tried Gamban on your computer?

Hey, reading what you have written is like reading myself! I registered with gamstop 31 December and I’ve not gambled since, I feel so free, I was constantly hiding money issues with my partner and going crazy if my partner asked me if I had gambled. I felt suicidal, ashamed, like I was mad, tearful, worried but I could not stop I spent every penny we had I’ve got 2 girls I totally ignored them while gambling and missed so much. I was so happy with them when I’d won and spoilt them and then when I’d loose I’d be in a bad mood or crying. I am stlll early days and miss it if I’m honest but I can’t do it thanks to GameStop this is the first time in 8 years and I even noticed I have extra money already and my stress levels are down. Register with gamstop and just start again nothing’s worth the heartache gambling causes I really hope you try again like you mine was online of you register with gamstop you can’t get onto any of them it’s changed so much for me please do it today it will be like a weight off your shoulders xx

First time on this site. My gambling problem is literally ruining my life. I have always dabbled with gambling, but the big problem started when I won £9000. Gave me such a high at the time, thinking about it been money I had never had before and how much it would help..but it didn’t, because before you know it I had stuck it right back on for more bets. I feel like I’ve been chasing it ever since. Worst thing is now, I am not sure what I class as a big win anymore. Blew the majority of my wages on blackjack and roulette this week. And I even made it up to a 3grand profit but I just cannot seem to stop. That sick feeling afterwards tortured me for days. Not only did I ruin my chance of catching up on my bills from 2 bads months of it, I have to deal with the embarrassment of not been able to do anything, go anywhere, not have food in. Yet none of it seems to be enough to stop me. I even spent the money I had set aside for my niece and nephews Xmas on gambling. At my wits end. Makes me feel like an inadequate adult. I can’t face going back to all the people that think I’m doing well just to say I’ve relapsed again. I sometimes wish I had any other addiction beside this because gambling is such a hard one for someone who hasn’t been in that situation to understand. I’m at complete rock bottom. It’s affecting everything. I work for the government and since I have started gambling I have had more sick days in the last few months than I have in my entire working life. It has the potential to ruining everything and I really don’t know how to stop/

Thankyou all for your comments and sharing your experiences much appreciated.. Last night was the first night i have stayed away from gambling its been 24 hours now. The last time was the 4th. I haven't heard of gamban but i will look into that as soon as im finished here today.Thankyou. cmille reading your message made me very said for you because i know exactly how you are feeling right now. There seems like no way out and the shame you feel is indescribable but it doesnt stop you from doing it.You keep thinking that big win can change it all and the chances are there for it to happen for you. Gambling or any other addiction there are underlying issues with yourself which not have been properly addressed So while they aren't addressed you will always find that addiction to turn to for comfort because that is all you know thats been your learning up to now. Something makes you feel better when you feel rotten why am i going to say no to it why should i.this makes me feel good. Its like a circle that never ends it goes around and round and round until one day you are in the middle of that circle your heads messed up your lifes messed up your self esteem is messed up even more than it was before. So how do we stop how do we stop the continuing cycle. What helped for me last time was seeing a therapist i was lucky as i didnt have to pay for it. But if i had the money id pay as it helps to get to the root of why you do the things you do and gives you new hope new strength.It doesnt work for everyone and you have to really need and want to change things. Do you want to keep stopping in the middle of that circle looking around not knowing which way to turn.Year after year after year sometimes months sometimes weeks sometimes days. The first step is climbing out of the zone. You know what i mean by that dont you.The place were only you and the gambling are there your best friend the one who has the ability to pull you up or kick you down. The place which takes your mind away from everyday life the bubble that floats around and takes you to the edge the dare the being at the edge of the pavement and running across the road before the car hits you place. Because thats what it is. Each time we gamble we gamble our lives away our families our relationships but most important we gamble who we really are away we become different people we become erratic irrational selfish needy. Even though we are doing everyday things we are still in the gambling zone in our heads.we cant wait to go home and play we plan it all in our heads and how we are going to do it. We convince ourselves by not telling our loved ones we are protecting them but all we are protecting is ourselves because we dont want them to stop us. We dont want to face the reality. My advice to get back into the reality is to do anything you can to find therapy. write down in a book everyday all you are grateful for. block your computers from any gambling sites.phones etc.unsubscribe from all gambling sites so you dont get the emails.as soon as your tempted go to the settings and self exclude for as long as you can. And find something to keep yourself busy anything exercise cinema visits groups courses anything to get you away from the zone. good luck to you..im an addict just like you and although ive stopped for 24 hours im still very much an addict. im taking each day as it comes one second to the next. we can do this we deserve better and so do our loved ones

also each time ive relapsed ive always comes here and its helped to share with all you lovely lot and to know you all understand and we are facing the same road together

My partner cant cope anymore and has finished us today. stop before you all lose everything

I am on a waiting list for CBT therapy anyway due to my anxiety, but I have heard that this therapy can also be great for gambling addictions. Woke up this morning feeling slightly better and clear headed. I am going to go ahead and self exclude from all the online sites that gamstop allows me too. There is a positive as well that where I live is so remote that we don’t have any casinos or bookies, so online is my only platform. I just want this to be it this time. It’s scaru because the first month that I load a significant amount of money and that sick feeling hit me, couldn’t look or speak to anyone.. when I came out of that I strongly believed it would never happen again. I can’t understand myself how I can then get to the point that I cannot stop until my money has gone, so I’m not sure how I expect anyone else to understand.

i understand im exactly the same.I was never happy until every penny was gone out the bank and even if i won a fare amount i wouldnt be happy till id blown the lot.Its like the feeling you deserve nothing so you should have nothing..good luck today im pleased to hear your heads more clear today

hi amiee

I just realised i could respond to each message what am i like...im really pleased you have stopped and things are starting to look better..i am 48 hours without gambling now and going through withdrawels not of the money kind either.But determind to do it this time.im seeing the doctor this morning for a refferral for therapy for all my self descructive thoughts ...thanks for replying to my message and good luck xx

thanks marypoppins im trying x

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i hadnt heard of it i have thanks to you and blocked the sites thankyou x

This is great i’m really glad Gamban worked for you