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But I am awake struggling to make the effort to go to work........I know I will........MY LIFE HAS BEEN A MESS SO MANY BAD DECISIO

Can't even type properly know...starting to get headaches on a daily basis.......

Got showered dressed.why are there so many people in my head?......

I also from it's like being drunk can't put words together...like verbal dementia...it's called anxiety related....no forgot

ADD meeting tue whether meeting fellow sufferers will help ( that's of course if I am ADD) which I am sure

Favdoc

Fella I am sorry to have not been about for a few days, my work life has dominated most of the past days, today I again address the balance.

Two things stand out from your recent posts, firstly you wrote that gambling is no longer the problem to which I agree, by abstaining from gambling your problems are not added to, but the offer of escapism stands, to gamble or drink or seek any other forms of escapism will always present themselves, it's what you do in life that will determine whether your need for escapism exists.

I have experienced many times folk who think by abstaining from gambling their lives will be dramatically improved just by carrying out the act of abstinence, this I believe is a trait of our gambling lives, the desire to get rewarded for little or no effort.

I did the same for the first 18 months of my recovery, it led to a gambling relapse.

Today I know life takes a great deal of effort, AADD is something I am very familiar with, it is something that I have been labelled with, the traits and behavioural patterns are many in my life, but the truth is I don't want to use it as a stick of blame, I want to deal with it, the onset of the resulting things it brings my life.

Today is about understanding, learning to live within the comfort of my own mind.

You will not change the outcome if you repeat the same action, it is purely mad to believe so.

Recovery is not a bed of roses, there is a lifetimes work on the road ahead, you have gifted yourself the opportunity to address the issues that affect your life, the issues that result in you seeking escapism.

Keep embracing it, learn from your shortfalls, take great heart in your strengths, build on them.

Every journey starts with a single step.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hi Dunc
I want to deal with it.not as a stick but to explain so much in my life .I have had alcohol probs in the past it has been a crutch for me...mainly confidence issues.I know have to get a second job to help with finances.I am a bit more up now. Ta Dunc

Fav doc

Well been out had a few beers still no gambling(still do lottery in family syndicate) ignored fruit machine,feel better looking forward to Aad meeting,I really feel this will answer so many questions but not solve problems...my brother died years before I was born and I blame his death on a series of events which I know think may be Aad in my families genes.this nay sound mad..but this so shaped my life before gamblin

Including smashing my head on concrete aged 5

Morning all feel quite positive add meeting tonight ,and hopefully letter regarding my referral will arrive this week,if I am not referred

That may be a negative step if I am not.i still appreciate all your comments.ta boys and girls

First meeting of add ocd group.....like ga find people are worse off than you

20 days apart from tiny lottery no gambling....Although Internet was main prob I did stand by 2 bandits in pub as a test..

20 days apart from tiny lottery no gambling....Although Internet was main prob I did stand by 2 bandits in pub as a test..

Depression is main worry and rumination and when remaining cash runs out........

Everybody hibernating again?

Is anyone on line?