See new members threads for my response.
Cheers.
22 days clean still ruminate no add result yet no suicidal tendencies lately
23 days and counting
Still ruminate
Hi favdoc... please can you expand on what you mean by ruminate? Do you mean it just keeps going over and over in your head the past actions?
Yes change it is over and over money wasted.quite recently and have gone thu a lot.Bit of a relapse today with panic attacks rumination and depression,plus I think I have add I have no desire move get up or anythin
Change wrote:
Hi favdoc... please can you expand on what you mean by ruminate? Do you mean it just keeps going over and over in your head the past actions?
yes it's awful sometimes
Morning favdoc
Fella is a huge part of your current mindset due to the fact that your gambling losses are being kept a secret from your partner?
Because I know that all through my own gambling life I covered up the loss and it fed addiction because addiction offered a solution all be it an unfounded one.
Without admitting my debt, the huge losses I simply would never have been able to truly begin my own journey.
Through admitting my debt I took the power away from addiction, enabling my brain to seek solutions for the here and now as well as those debts I occurred to be furnished.
Recovery is a process, a jigsaw puzzle if you like, in my mind you have to first and foremost gather all the pieces together before you embark upon building it.
You have started to collate those pieces, keep putting them on the table.
Embrace it, enjoy it.
Abstain and maintain
Duncs stepping forward never back.
Yes and no...I am not a young person and my wife is older with a medical history.I know there are people worse off than me,just get so......well feeling quite low now
Fav
Fella think that you are missing my point, I am stating that you have to look firstly out for yourself, stop making comparisons as to how 'badly' you are off as regards to other folks problems, this is not a who can P#i#ss Furthest competition, we are all here to seek help for our own shortcomings, dont feel like you don't deserve your fill, everyone in recovery is equal, there are no folk more deserving of help than another.
My point this morning was to say , are you faltering, hindered by the fact that your gambling losses are a secret?
Because it would read like they have become a wall between you and recovery.
Knock it down my friend.
Regards duncs.
Hi dunc, the only thing that's a wall for my recovery is my inability to make up losses I gave up a stressful job thru redundancy,which sadly gave me the money to feed my gambling although initially this was to help the quite large difference between my old and new job.I am still convinced I have ADD and think if I can fight this this will fight the depression,I am a great worrier too even before the gambling debts.I am not using ADD as a stick but it does explain so much of which CG is probably only 10%.I am also covinced add is hereditary in our family.Gambling is at the moment not a problem merely regaining some financial high ground.
Morning all feel reasonable,still no gambling( apart from as you know family lottery syndicate) still very up and down
30 days
32 days
36 days...rumination is biting badly again....Mental health review soon LOOK FORWARD TO SLEEP...NO INCENTIVE TO DO ANYTHING
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