Fresh Start

Slipped today but more importantly started self excluding immediately after. Way easier than I expected I even spoke with staff and asked them to make sure I don't get served. I have more to do and am happy to do it.

Right so I slipped on Tuesday, Wednesday of this week. I suppose because I had opportunity. I am now accepting that wanting to stop gambling is no longer enough. So after my slip I used 20 euro and got 18 photos and started self excluding. I did all the shops around where I work and today I will do the ones where I live. I do still have two live bets but after the masters they will be done. I am still abit high but I only started gambling after talking to someone in GA who had relapsed shows that just gave me a reason and I took it. I will update more later but am happy enough besides the considerable financial loss.

I have been busy self excluding from all round me funny I feel happier after going in and doing than I have in a long time I now will have to travel at least 1/2 hour in a car to gamble round home. Its a bit tricker in Dublin though but am carrying passport photos and am doing what shops I pass.

So pleased you have SE Michael it is a great feeling you've taken some control back. That's one side of that triangle broken. Try and break another one to give you that safety net. Easiest to keep carrying money to the minimum.

I'm not trying to preach Michael I just want you to succeed.

Well done though mate proud of you for taking that step.

KTF

Michael what was the response when you walked into the bookies? I know in England you can self exclude yourself from bookies but didnt know you could do it in ireland .

70 Days todays going well life not perfect but better than it was

73 Days going well,don't know why! I think I have turned a corner don't ask me why. In Paris today, I seen a child of 5 on the street with his mum. To be honest I thought it was a scam (begging) come back an hour later and they are fast asleep on the street under a blanket. I crumbled, I tried to wake the mum to give her some money but she was asleep so I stuck the money under the blanket. Anyway came back to my hotel the porter was telling me he lost money betting on the Euro's and I thought hopefully my money finds more use. Please god maybe something will break for that poor woman and child I suppose we dont realise how lucky we all are, night folks. Stay gamble free

81 Days a bit down today feel like going for a bet deliberately first time in 81 days that I felt like this I suppose just knackered.

Not worth it Michael you're nearly at the first goal of 100 days keep checking in on here mate

Hi Michael,

You're doing so well, just remember the reasons that you are doing this and how bad you felt on the first diary post above - you hated yourself, you felt numb. No more of that, why would you put yourself through that again? Chill out and enjoy watching us smash Iceland tonight 🙂 Let us know how you're feeling tonight tonight Michael.

Twinklyr

Look we have all felt bad on the first day, I have gotten 2 and 1/2 years 9 months 6 months 5 months loads of 3 months. In the end what made me look at myself was how actually hard it is to get a day off gambling. I just reduced it to one day and struggled through. It was a bit of a scare because even in all the previous times ,I don't think I was at ease as much as this time with my abstinance so to go back to wanting a bet was quite a fall. Yesterday was a good bit better and today I am 12 weeks without a bet. I think this mess up is due to missing GA meetings I was away alot of late and missing meetings, I feel this has caused issues. Look I know it's not good to miss meetings, but it's funny how their not as important once your clear of a bet. I will be at my meeting next week.

85 Days today and this past week I have struggled and I honestly dont know why all of a sudden

86 days struggling but moving forward

87 struggling don't ask me why

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