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Hi i just joined today and mine is a similar situation. I'm on medication for depression and been blaming every think and every one around me but it's me and the gambling . Iv spend money that is not mine. Money that is for the family and living expenses, I go with out because I try and chase the the lose and end up losing more.. I sneak out and say if been shopping. And it's come to a stage were I'm left with no money for 4 days because of my addiction

Ullah

Thanks for the support. We are not alone, only a cg can understand another.

I have tried many times to quit. Each time it gets a little less daunting. It can be done and gambling can be left behind.

Stick with it

I feel sick

So much time, energy and money wasted. My actions have consequences that other people are suffering from.

I feel a fraud to anyone that loves or respects me.

Will it ever change

What has this disease done to me!

I dread waking up in the morning and going to work. I used to enjoy it. My life is just a serious of deceit and lies and I have spent everyone's money.

It is all consuming. What kind of person have I become. Will I ever change ?

All I can do is take it one day at a time. Today I will not - cannot gamble

I have pretty much bankrupted myself and my family are suffering- only I can stop this

Hi HMMT, welcome to the forum 🙂

Yes, you will but only if you're prepared to put the work in! Looks like you have your wife on board with the finances but gambling isn't really about money. Took me a very long time to realise this & to be honest I'm still coming to terms with it myself but have a look round the site, you will need to do more than just sort your money out. As addicts we lose sight of reality: dream big, wish hard & fall harder. We're not bad people but most of us have done really stupid stuff & addiction offers us hope of making our mistakes go away. It's all bull but we're so stuck in the fog of it, it's hard to see any other way out.

Well you're taking it. Getting your wife on board & finding this place is a great start! Have you considered the counselling that GamCare will provide free of charge or getting to GA? We can't change our past but we sure as hell can make sure we don't make the same mistakes in the future. You don't have to go it alone but yes, only you can stop this - ODAAT

HMMT wrote:

I feel sick

So much time, energy and money wasted. My actions have consequences that other people are suffering from.

I feel a fraud to anyone that loves or respects me.

Will it ever change

I feel your pain. I am in exactly the same boat. Living a life of deceit, wasting my hard earned wages, waking up feeling guilty, thinking "this time it's definitely it. No more gambling". My vice is online slots. I wish they had never been invented. I think more and more females like myself are getting sucked in by them. Don't be so hard on yourself. There are a lot of us all in the same boat, and we can beat this evil addiction one day at a time. I have failed about ten times I think. My best was about 120 days gf, which shows that I can do it, but I just have to STAY in that mindset. Good luck. Be strong xx Suz

Thanks guys, it means s lot to know I am not alone

I just wish there was a pill I could take or an operation

Every day is so d**n hard

There is so much stress in my life it is hard to pinpoint a trigger

Will just have to keep ploughing on and pray it gets easier

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I am still not in the right frame of mind. The necessity to stop is there but not the will.

I am slowly tackling the mountain of debt and no longer burying my head in the sand.

The days are getting better depression wise, but the anxiety is constantly there.

Actions speak louder than words!

I will stop gambling and give my family the love and attention they deserve

Really want to gamble now......have removed one of the triangle and whilst frustrated, pleased in the knowledge the system works. Urge will pass, bank balance will remain the same

Had a dreadful couple of months - gambling.

Moved my home and business for a new start and forgot to leave an old (an worst) habit behind.

In danger of losing everything. I need to take control.

Longest run of non gambling was about 2 years when I met my wife. I can do this, I will do this, I must do this.

One day at a time