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I can't I'm on the tube...Hang in there til I get above ground & we'll chat! Be strong!

1) The demos doesn't count as a relapse but they are red lights & you know what red light spells...Get away from that danger zone & fast! Smash up your computer, drown it in the bath if you have to :-0

2) Take a deep breath, get outside & feel the air on your face...You are not drowning you are safe here with all your friends!

3) Work sucks but you need that bread on your table to go with the water! You started with a new team this week which is stressful itself without your lovely parents being poorly & this evil addiction sitting on your head trying to pull you under! Probably should have chucked a sickie instead of not going in but hell, it's the same difference!

4) You are here now so you have nothing to apologise for! Just don't leave us again, right - no pressure 😉

Sandra, you may feel like you have been out of control your whole life but seems to me you are here now learning how to get some! Gotta go for a lie down now coz I sprinted up the escalators (probably got the escalator police hot on my heels) but I'm online & waiting...

Don't you bloody give up on me...

I'm on a packed train, sweating like a P I G from all my exertion...You are smashing this evil in the face! Please don't delete your post! Is there anything I can do?

You have everything to fight for & I believe in you because you are here every day fighting!

Moving house is meant to be one of the most stressful things in the world (probably the people that wrote that don't work where you do) so that alone would be enough to 'do someone's head in' but this is the light @ the end of your tunnel! I will meet you in MK in July before the concert & we will buy some new things from Primark (it will only cost a fiver) for your new home & then I will treat you to lunch @ one of the 5 restaurants next door!

Mate, you're not fine, let me help...How do we exchange details so I can phone/email you before you drown your phone/computer?

Haha...
Ok my friend, meet you there. Primark started to ring some bells now..i guess I've been there with my shopaholic sis (no way there is any D&G along those shelves lol..bless her..must of come to terms of HER addiction).

Right diary,

As i mentioned on Juuune's tread (never give up on ya girl)..i shall do this for all my friends i have found on here..and this is You , you and you behind the forum walls.

Together we stand

S xxxx

What exactly are you doing honey? Skating right on by day 93 I hope?

So just to confirm then, you made an old lady peg it up not 1 but 2 sets of escalators because you're a drama queen right 😉

I am going to get off the train in a minute & when I get in, I'm gonna take the mutt out (even if he is still limping) & I'm gonna walk to the park & we're gonna howl @ the moon - just because we can!

I have no idea if you have any real friends in this land & whilst I refuse point blank to go raving anymore, I do have a car (not as lovely as your little Golf but it's got 4 wheels & it's blue) & a driving licence (my own) & would be more than happy to drive to whatever seaside you visit just to put a face to the name if you ever thought some company would help!

Ah hah, the above post saved itself halfway through but I am a GC genius & I was able to update it - check me out!

I am so chuffed to see you taking big breaths again & I'd run anywhere (as long as it's less than a mile) to make you smile! (Eek am I starting to sound like a stalker?!? I don't care, I would!)

I'm in, fone will be on for a bit as I catch up on the last couple of scintillating episodes of Emmerdale (similar to howling @ the moon) & then I will be abstaining for 8 hours straight even though it is very difficult sometimes!

Try & get some sleep, then tomorrow you can tell us all this was a nasty dream 😉 You did great choosing 'No'...I'm proud of you - Juuuuuune

Hi S,

I hope you are feeling better today, looks like you went through the mill yesterday,

You are dealing with a lot of issues at this time, but you know gambling won't solve any of them, or make you feel better, it will just make you feel worse. Stay strong and keep thinking recovery.

Sending you warm and strong thoughts.

S xxxxxx

Morning (ish...I didn't log out til after 3 & I didn't want you getting on my case about my abstinence) Honey Bun, I hear you had a nasty dream yesterday 😉

Good afternoon all,

Yes Juune one huge nightmare last night but hey another day showed it's face so gonna try to stay awake this time 🙂

Dear diary,

Feel very sick today. Sort of bed bounded with cough and headache. I guess i asked for it lol
Will b ok, even if things won't get packed today i did more than i could yesterday (digging in closed boxes today to get medicine out)..ohhh...what I'm like lol

So all is so so. No gambling, no demo and no work (happy dayyyyyys for sure 😉 )

Have a good day all

S x

Hi S,

Don't you be falling asleep with your cold and medication, you might end up on a plane again and my OH is flying to Barbados at the mo(on his comp of course ) and just to warn you its on auto pilot while he is multitasking with Xbox fighting to save the world lol.

S xxxxxxx

Soz to hear you are poorly but maybe explains why you felt sooo rubbish yesterday! You didn't ask for it! Stress manifests itself in many ways & this is one of them! You are strong remember, get on the sofa (if it's not in a box) & feel sorry for yourself in front of some dodgy Saturday Nite TV!

So very proud you came through 🙂

No no no no no no no!

In a while Cabbage Head 😉