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Sandra

My dear friend please don't worry about me, I am in a truly great place both mentally and physically.

I am i know truly blessed to have such a wonderful team of support who put in great efforts to ensure that is the case and will remain so.

I am so very proud of the way you are embracing life.

Inspiring

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back.

duncanmac wrote:

Sandra

My dear friend please don't worry about me, I am in a truly great place both mentally and physically.

I am i know truly blessed to have such a wonderful team of support who put in great efforts to ensure that is the case and will remain so.

I am so very proud of the way you are embracing life.

Inspiring

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back.

You can worry about me Sandra. lol

No don't but thanks for the support and reminder on the 90 days.

One more link in the triangle.

Tri

Hello diary,

Firstly thank you very much for your kind thoughts my dear friends ☺, very appreciated.

So, got an issue over here..no..no gambling and no demos...creepy crawly inda house :-0 !!!!! Man, i had to watch it for half hour and then whisper to one of the cats to come and get it...hmmmm...that resulted in two of us staring at the same spot for another half hour :-/...i thought cats catch them but mine seems to bring these "friends" in and leave them nice and warm in the house :-0...anyway...i braved myself to go and get a glass! So now it's under the glass :-0 ..what next? Lol..i cannot put paper underneath it (too scared) but poor creature gonna suffocate if i leave it there i guess :-/
Not sure what to do so just buying some time for myself lol and posting on here ☺

I was thinking about Dan's words today. Two simple questions i should ask myself daily...well, it's not hard is it? ;-)...no...today was easy task! I woke up after 7hrs sleep full of energy (yesterday's stint of 27hrs none sleep seen me passing out on the doorstep lol).
Good deeds:
в—Џ fed cats
в—Џ whatsApped sister and made her laugh or so i understood from the replies lol
● washed up, brought rubbish bins bk from the street, not forgetting to move neighbours ones too ☺
в—Џ let lady cross the road (not on pedestrian crossing or zebra crossing) and shared a smile
в—Џ got to work a little early to sort the staff out
в—Џ answered all million questions with a smile on my face and it was good to have a smile back!
в—Џ employed one person and it was just amazing feeling to tell the interview outcome and see that light of joy in their eyes
● heard from a friend who is recently struggling with mr G but put some great measured of stopping the down spiral..expressed how proud i am ☺
в—Џ was super quick to sort everything out at work and was let home earlier than i thought 🙂
......so that's enough aknowledgement for a day i guess ☺

Ohhh..yea, helping out one person with a translation tommorow so that will feel good also!..

Feeling positive and glad to share it on my diary,...about time lol...yes..time heals so just keep bringing all the challenges on, Sandra is not backing off now 🙂

..now..back to the creepy crawly :-0 ..brrrrrrrrrrrrr...wish me luck, but on the other hand maybe just another good deed waiting to happen and i can go to bed at peace..we can hope :-))))

Take care all and stay safe! Every new day is a little battle won !

S x

Lovellllyyyy POSITIVE post coo coo, HDs indeed :))

You are sooo right lol, recovery is different every day :)))

Keep walking the walk,staying SAS.

Blondiee xxx

That's a lot of good deeds in one day...good for you.It's good to see you acknowledging them 🙂

So, what happened to the creepy crawley? I had that once. I left it for ages, feeling bad, but when I went back the little bug*er had gone 🙂 Spent the rest of the night worried that it was plotting revenge. Trust me to get the Harry Houdini spider!!

Have a great day

LB x

Murderer!! How can you live with yourself? Only joking....I don't think killing a creepy crawley counts as a "crime". To be fair, he was breaking and entering so you could probably plead self-defence 🙂

Yes, absolutely no clue about "Boris" and "Meg" and their unexpected appearances. Perhaps Juuuuuunie can fill me in when she's back from sunning herself at the bolthole.

Keep on, keeping on.

Mrs. Galaxy 🙂

To prevent your face being plastered on wanted posters in webs throughout the country, maybe you should get one of those spider catcher gadgets. They're like a mini humane hoover....it gently sucks them up and you put them out of the window. Lakeland....a tenner. Aranchnoids sorted 🙂

As for the ripple. I've already had today's quota!

LB x

Thanks for popping in my diary. You know I appreciate your support dear Sis. -joanxxx

Oooh, get you 🙂 A cute guy at the doorstep...he gets rid of your spider AND takes your number! Smooth. Go girl!!

LB x

Thanks LB, hope all is well with yourself ☺

So diary,

No gambling..phewww....feeling a little sorry for myself today. I do on my days off plus one of the workmates comments really digged in the other day.."you're single for how long? You will b on ur own forever at this rate". That hurt and made me think. Is it the way to live i choose or is it something i forgot how to do?..i guess both, am just never happy lol, but watching a programme yesterday made me realise that you can be on your own until you find someone who makes you feel like you don't wonna be alone..makes sense for me lol..

Going to watch little man play football tommorow! I will mk it, i want to ☺ ..he is my world and that won't change forever.

Not a low post, am just outta sorts today, letting my thoughts to take over and rule my head...sometimes all i want to do is just go out as 30yrs olds does, dance the night away, enjoy yourself..i cannot do it, i am an outcast lol..too much effort

No gambling, main part of recovery complete ☺

Nite nite all

S x

Good morning diary,

Another day is here and woke up feeling rested. Put all yesterday's feelings aside and starting afresh.
Reading round the forum really made me smile this morning. Our dear Duncs is embracing his life with a smile on his face, making changes and pursuing his passion in cooking! Really uplifted my spirits seing him happy ☺
Am absolutely made up for our Junie also. She sounds in the right place recently and enjoying recovery to its full. I have also learned that if we work towards our dreams ...we will achieve something amazing and rewarding.
Our GT started day nice and early also. Making the most out of it is the best approach in life. We deserve good things in life. Truly inspiring

As of me, i am looking ahead today. Sun is shining so i shall have few minutes in the garden. Then go to the match to see my lil boy score at least few goals ☺..a good run lined up also (didn't make it yesterday :-/) and just maybe a relaxing evening before working week starts with new challenges!

I can do it..i am doing it and I'm choosing life over something oposite being brought by this nasty addiction. No gambling today, that's the least i can do for today ☺

Take care all and stay safe

S x

Hey Sandra,

I had wondered where you were born too, as I couldn't figure it out. I thought you might be West Indian!!!! ha ha ha, you can't tell from what people write can you? hee hee hee!

Do you know something that I have been thinking about today? Is that we often praise each other on this forum in terms of "you are a great person, because you support me". It can almost become an unhealthy way to help us feel that we are "not that bad" as it makes people like us. We can get a bit addicted to the approval it gets us, you know?

But the danger with it, is that when we are really low and haven't got the energy to support and inspire others, our self esteem can drop, because we are no longer doing the thing that makes us feel good about ourselves.

I do appreciate people's messages of support, but whether they write me or not, I love them anyway. I see who they are on the inside. I love them and their beautiful hearts. They don't need to do anything for me, it is there regardless. I want you to know today, that I love your beautiful soul. Even if you do no more kind things for anyone for the rest of your life, that permanent esteem and love will still be there. It doesn't need topping up.

I hope people on this forum do love themselves enough to still feel worthy when they are not reaching out. I do. It took me a lot of years, but I like who I am, whether I'm helping others or saying nothing. I'm still dead canny.

Don't doubt yourself, you CAN do this. Stay away from the self-sabotage of demo games, you deserve more than that.

f x

Good morning!! ;0)

Thanks for your kind post on my diary yesterday.

Keep making that right choice and keep strong.

One day at a time is enough.

Ade xx

Hey you back :))))

Thanks for dropping by hope you are ok Hun,

(((((((Sandra)))))) Hugs back little friend.

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