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I agree with all of Julie's sentiments. Vilnius has great pubs too? Even more reasons to go! :P

well well well Sandra 🙂 its a small world indeed!

My grandfather is Lithuanian!! I've still got lots of family out there. I'm ashamed to say i've never made it out to Lithuania for a visit 🙁 one day soon though.. All my younger brothers have except me.. was probably too busy gambling in the past 🙁 arghhh.. look to the future now 🙂

My grandfather was born in Kaunas. Most of his side of the family still all live there and a few in Vilnius also.

I'd love to go one day and now that i'm on the right track at long last i think this will happen.

Well, keep working hard and making the right choices. Thanks also for your lovely support on my wee diary.

2012 x

oh and i forgot to say, so that makes me 1/4 Lithuanian 🙂 3/4 Scottish..

ačiū

Thank you all :-))

Lovely surprise 2012..i am from Kaunas too, and only visited Vilnius twice ( shame on me lol )

Julie, you are doing fantastic!!! In recovery and ... candy crush 😛 ...be proud!!

Ryan - i am more than happy to walk the walk here with you..and some sightseeing overseas 🙂

Dear diary,

No sleep, but no gamblng either 🙂

Work tonight..bring it on!!

Day at a time

Onwards and upwards!!

Take care all

Sandra xx

Such an interesting post Sandra, the people on here have so many different facets to their personalities that we often never hear about as the focus is gambling but for me really highlights the opportunities you can have now you have kicked the demons into touch. I grew up in Portugal and Australia and love travelling, so many new friends to meet and cultures to enjoy.

Enjoy the planning, I think it is half the fun, you are such a lovely lady I just somehow know life will be kind in return.

xxx

Hey girl! So proud of you! You have now surpassed that 100 day mark. I'm determined to get there myself... and more (as we both are). Am also so pleased to see that you're in a positive head space. you keep it up and know that even though I 'm not coming on here everyday anymore, I am thinking of you!

Thank you all so much...xxxx

Edit...fookity fookity f*** lol

Sx

Hi Sandra,

Well done on the 100 days!! I'm hoping to get to that milestone too. You were the first one to post in my diary and your support has helped me match a personal best for days without gambling! Thank you so much.

Keep up the good work. I'm looking forward to seeing you get through the next 100 days.

Thanx Martin.. i am pleased i was some help 🙂 keep it up!!

Dear diary,

Day 104, and finally sat down lol.

Day and night is no diference for me anymore...I believe it's Sunday morning...feels like Wednesday for me lol..love my weekends :-)) ( ....at work haha )

So diary, i broke my own rule and didn't keep my hands behind my back yesterday...nervously waiting for some feedback from top boss lol...fingers still tapping on the table..i am bad girl here...but i fight for my and others rights..ms perfect here lol..

All good, my opponent still got eyes in her sockets and hair on a head so thats positive lol ...maybe not as good knowing she is a manager...oops...but a bit r******d one i have to add...sorry, but it's true and i will not let someone to walk all over our shift only couse their performance going down the drain and they looking for other ppl to take the blame...that's the situ explained lol..

I had lovely image in my head while receiving all lovely comments how to do or not to do my job....yep...better not share brutality..:-)....how could i??? Lol

Anyhoo...no f****g Gambling!!!! How good...really pleased with that.

A bit of running, a bit of sleep and still standing for another day :-)))

" good and quet girl S " xxxx

P.s...seen new Flaggs tread...would like to join, but i do do occasional scratchcard ( not on Dave's tread )...but few times before..so just don't want to jeopardise my recovery..i honestly don't see huge issue with them...but never say never so guard staying up...always...hey ho..off i go !!!....to work 😛

Xx

Hi Sandra,

104 days is nothing to be sniffed at, and frankly work seems to be something that everyone can have problems with, as January is the time that many people get assessed etc. Frankly, managers are often barely able to manage to get dressed without leaving their flies undone or their a***s out.

Well done for staying on track and keeping on the straight and narrow.

All the best

Ryan

Hey Ryan ..thank you very much for your thoughts :-))

Last thought for my morning..

Why if you keep quiet and keep ur head down u get walked all over you..and as soon as you stand up for yourself, express your point of view and opinion...you sudenly become baddie and "danger" to everyone..??

Something to work on getting to the bottom of this...

Xx

P.s....i'm a bit revved up here lol (takes me 13 hrs to calm down lol..still counting )...why to have manager who is like scared puppy in situations like that? Some ppl just need to get balls i'm afraid..."yea yea Sandra, you did the right thing,, she needed to b told"...hmmm...it's not my f****g job to show clear picture about things...to then spum round and lick f****g a**e again...no thank you, not my nature...

Some ppl just needs to touch ground now and again...so far u can fly without wings...maybe it's just me...but thank you, been s**t on enough in my life..time to put stop on that.

..ramble over...

Hi Sandra... and well done for fighting your corner. Am sure you pick the battles that are worth fighting. People have often walked all over me. I need bigger balls lol 😉 take care... S.A 🙂

Yo,

Soooooo hear your frustration .

Yesterday was accused of interfering in responsibities of one of my peers . You take toooooo much on another said ???????

My reply , if you did it , solved it , or actioned it. I would not need to.

So Hun , I am with you this morning , feeling that stacking selves in the co op may be the only way to keep my sanity .

But then have no doubt I would upset someone because I believed the frozen peas should go next to the carrots .lol

Shiny xxxxx

Hey guys,

Thank you for your kind words and encouragment 🙂

Another day in heaven and i am free for couple of days..really don't want to go in..but it is what is.

Watched some weather news around the globe and really worried about my dear pals on here..DF hope your boat will stay afloat and averything inside it is dry...look after urself Hun..

Carla and Joan - keep warm and safe also...bloody freezing conditions over there ur end...brrrr...even thinking of it..bless ur hearts..

And where has soul gone? I really hope she is safe too and has that fridge stacked up with goodies..miss my pal..

..had a chuckle at Reachel's post too ( if i could see it lol )..bless you too girl, i hope ur curfew time nearly up..did ur time little criminal lol

Shiny girl..not long to go...well deserved rest just round the corner 🙂

..and my little pal Julie..keep having that lovely time with your loved ones..memories of time like that are priceless 🙂

For the rest of you my dear fighters - strentgh and honour. Keep up keeping up!!!

Off i go through the open door... :-))

Day at a time

S xxx

Hey there 🙂 thanx girl xx

Dear diary,

Clock striked 12 and another day begins. Here we go...couldn't stay in "heaven" for too long so took some time off...besides my opponent was much quieter today so made things much easier to go through on a changeover....I'm glad to finish early couse it's raining so heavy, I already was nearly swimming on a road...

Feel determined and strong today ( being kind to myself too Julie...hence half a night off lol)...work issues left at work, and it seems right thing to do.

No urges, no self destructive thoughts..thank god..just feel peace with myself today...as we say...day at a time, so much meaning in that....

Got a vacancy list at work...and hey...placement in China!!!..not sure if I would like to move there...but never say never...some work to do towards it, couse it's manager's place...I'm not there yet lol...

Out of random picked place on a map today for my first place to visit..(still got belief lol)...Azerbaijan. ..hmmm..maybe not lol...prefer Brazil or Africa, America. ?..long way to go down this road, but have to keep believing 🙂

For this year will just go smthere in Spain..a week off to relax and get some tan..need holiday.....really want time off for my racing brain...just that week would do me..

Anyway, looked in a bk seat of the car tonight...and guess what??...Xmas present there!!!lol...not too bad 3 weeks later haha...I must of forgot it...bless my sis...at least some nice perfume there...Xmas came early for me lol

Right, blabbing on a bit here...all good, working towards my goal (of better future) and staying on the recovery road with all of you dear fighters..

Now a bit of telly...program about Michael Jackson.....my childhood hero..RIP....

Rambling but not gambling...I'm happy...don't need much lol

Day at a time

Stay safe all

Sandra xxx

P.s. something I listen to every day on a way to work ...love this song...

.....cmon Avicii

http://youtu.be/5y_KJAg8bHI

Xx